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Seriously now...

I feel like I can honestly be myself on here. All the things I am too afraid to admit about myself in front of the public at large don't seem such an issue here as the company is unusual by defenition. There are things about me that I feel embarassed and possibly even ashamed to admit because of the fear I have of how people will perceive it. I suppose the biggest of those is that if I had my choice I would have been born female. I relate to women better, all my closest friends have always been female and occasionally I just get this feeling that my body is wrong somehow, like things are missing (yeah you know where I am going with that). I would never do anything about it; I think that while it makes many people a lot happier with themselves I seem to have been blessed/cursed with quite a high level of tossertestorone (yeah I know it is spelt wrong) and quite a blokely bloke, so much so that I know I would make one damn ugly woman.

I like pornography; it's fun and sexy and it turns me on and I don't see the problem with that, but at the same time admitting you're a porn fan does not do wonders for your social life, at least not my social life, but maybe I just hang out with the wrong people. Naked people look nice, and I enjoy looking.

I can't think of anything else right now as I am getting ready for class, but there are other things I am sure. I just want to start being more honest with myself and others, but I suspect a lot of people on here are aware that that is sometimes a lot harder to do than you would initially anticipate.