angrymeat

so lets see what has changed what has changed . For starters smauel was born 6 months ago so i now have two wonderful sons. I got a vasectomy so i will never have anymore . Oh My wife left me yesterday. I guess all in all been a productive time of my life. sigh I really donot know what to put here. I started this to get a bunch of feelings off my chest however I just dont know how I feel form one moment to another. I am reamazed I guess is how I should put it at how much music can affect emotion as well as how dependant our sanity becomes dependant upon othe rpeople in our life. its Strange how everything that mattered so much work money so on two days ago are meaningless right now to me. I feel so damn worthless right now . Outside of my normal issues with self esteem i now have all the fun realizations that im an aggressive rude procrastinating asshole. The human mind is funny i know my faults with my personality I can even trace most of them back to the begining however I seem powerless to change those faults I wonder why that is. I have been thinking pretty heavy about seeing a therapist to get alot of these things worked on . I have been playing drums alot latey that has been pretty nice I havnt touched bass very much i think I just need a break from it. Anyways i dont know whatelse to put in here im rather sad right now and could ramble on endlessly so i opt to quit now.