angeredvato

My love for you has never diminished nor looked dull.
I'm at work.
Telling myself,"you can make it through".
When the calls are busy its easy to go.
But when the times are quiet, my mind begins to roll.
I must look at my phone every have an hour.
Just to see how time is left to make it through,
and most importantly to see if I have a call from you.
I head home sad, but supported.
With optimism from both our friends.
Theres times I feel I should call.
But usually being pessimistic, my mind says why? You will just go straight to voice mail.
Once dinner is done and baths from each one went through.
I gather the days laundry.
Just to have something to do.
Oh a dirty dish or two.
I will do those to.
Just to try and not think of you.
I can't watch our shows. Your aren't by my side.
"I heard David Hernandez didn't make it."
"What are your thoughts so far?"
"Yeah me too."
I often find myself wanting to say.
"Hey, I'm going to bed""Are you coming too?"
When I look at the couch,
a sad reminder, that you aren't here.
I try to lay down and close my eyes. As I hope you have already read.
I can't cause I got you running through my mind.
Oh look, it's 5A.M.
Time to start another day.
My mind wonders even more.
Thinking now I lost time.
For now I have lost another day without you by my side.
It odd how quiet time can make you think.
I wish it was loud.
So I could get some sleep.
I have rambled on for now.
I am going to give it another try.
I hope you have slept well.
For me well maybe another day.
Good night I love you.
This I hold true.
For without all of this.
I wouldn't be here thinking of you...