anger_frog

Once I posted the new haircut pics, everyone said either that I looked cute or really young. This was also the consensus in real life, until a friend earlier this even said it was hot. I replied that I was shocked to hear this, since all the claims of cute I interpreted as a sort of puppy dog cute. She said that if I was a puppy, then that made her a bitch in heat. Of course, my friend is married and just a friend regardless, so the dry spell rolls on oppresively with no end in sight.

I'm starting to lull into a lethargic apathy as far as romance goes. For the longest while it seemed that all the luck my friends have been enjoying in such endeavors was a sign of the Fates mocking me. But, for the time being, I'm feeling kind of mellow about the whole affair (or lack of affairs, as the case may be). Then again, perhaps the lack of sleep is keeping me a state of mollification as far as libidinous drives go. Not that I mind this temporary state of numbness, as Buddhism states that the source of all suffering is desire.

The only thing bothering me right now is the knowledge that the numbness never lasts. After a few hours of sleep, I'll be back among the living and wanting all the things everyone wants. I only wish there were a surgery or drug to kill all that off and leave a shell that go through the motions for the rest of this life. That would be swell.