Updating for the sake of something more cheerful to look at for any pass by here. Relatively cheeful, anyway....covering up another angst entry from a few hours ago.
All my self-improvements involve removal of things from myself. I wonder how much I have to pare away from myself in order to be better? What if I keep cutting away obsessively until one day there was nothing left? Poor choice of words...keep forgetting a lot of people here have a history with the literal kind of cutting. Maybe I'm burning away the dross from the metal? I used to do that literally; things would get too much and there was nothing like putting out a cigarette in my palm to snap things back to where they should be. No...I'm getting off topic.
I'm not sleeping again, since I'm having the dreams again. I can stand my waking life being an awkward, painful mess, but I can't stand having the only 8 hours of peace I have to be haunted too.
Last night was interesting, since I helped a couple people crop their profile pics. I'm getting pretty handy with photo editing software, although I still need to get ahold of another copy of Photoshop. I'm thinking about taking some photography classes, as I'd like another outlet other than writing. Writing alone doesn't give me enough release anymore.
I have too much to do today to sleep...a lot of driving and running errands. I'll sleep either tonight or tomorrow...I probably won't be around until I sleep, since the last time I was on an IM like that I seemed to have told someone that I wanted to grow up to be a vibrating gong. Too embarrassing to say whom that person was...
Fuck. That wasn't cheerful at all. I'll find a cute animal pic to balance things out; people seem to like those...maybe a bunny.
Yay a bunny
All my self-improvements involve removal of things from myself. I wonder how much I have to pare away from myself in order to be better? What if I keep cutting away obsessively until one day there was nothing left? Poor choice of words...keep forgetting a lot of people here have a history with the literal kind of cutting. Maybe I'm burning away the dross from the metal? I used to do that literally; things would get too much and there was nothing like putting out a cigarette in my palm to snap things back to where they should be. No...I'm getting off topic.
I'm not sleeping again, since I'm having the dreams again. I can stand my waking life being an awkward, painful mess, but I can't stand having the only 8 hours of peace I have to be haunted too.
Last night was interesting, since I helped a couple people crop their profile pics. I'm getting pretty handy with photo editing software, although I still need to get ahold of another copy of Photoshop. I'm thinking about taking some photography classes, as I'd like another outlet other than writing. Writing alone doesn't give me enough release anymore.
I have too much to do today to sleep...a lot of driving and running errands. I'll sleep either tonight or tomorrow...I probably won't be around until I sleep, since the last time I was on an IM like that I seemed to have told someone that I wanted to grow up to be a vibrating gong. Too embarrassing to say whom that person was...
Fuck. That wasn't cheerful at all. I'll find a cute animal pic to balance things out; people seem to like those...maybe a bunny.
Yay a bunny
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fiendclub:
a bunch of stuff. the bunny is nice.
mle:
i do always have you
