I actually convinced myself I was worth something.
I'm sorry I disappointed you, as I feel like I lied to you as much as I lied to myself.
But at least someone told me the truth.
Update:
Okay, that was a helluva lot more dramatic than I wanted it to sound. The truth is that I feel very humiliated, and I'm having a hard time coping with that. I'm going to have a beer or 20 and hopefully I'll look better in the morning.
If not, then....I don't know.
I'm sorry I disappointed you, as I feel like I lied to you as much as I lied to myself.
But at least someone told me the truth.
Update:
Okay, that was a helluva lot more dramatic than I wanted it to sound. The truth is that I feel very humiliated, and I'm having a hard time coping with that. I'm going to have a beer or 20 and hopefully I'll look better in the morning.
If not, then....I don't know.
lotus:
