angelsilence

wow I love this site.
I think that I might be feeling better already.

Ok .... so here's my thinking for today.
I know that my current boyfriend loves me, but I also know that at this present time I do not love him. I feel stuck between trying to do what is right for my baby and doing what I think will make me happy. Which is not being with his dad.
I know that he's an ass and very difficult to live with, but I know that he is also trying really hard to change. He makes me feel really bad when I try to bring up the idea of separating.

Then I wonder, maybe I have a fear of envelopment and I'm too young to be in a serious relationship. And if I break up with him I'll be making one of the biggest mistakes in my life. I'll be giving up on something that could be really good, and I'll never find anyone else that loves me as much as he does. Those are my thoughts today.......I still feel like an alien.

This picture reminds me of my ex... who's been on my mind a lot lately ( and the f*ckr's engaged)