I'm going to head out to work pretty soon. I have been having so much on my mind all the time. One of the more recent things being that I was hanging out with this kid and he introduced his room mate who had just gotten home from a long stay in the hospital, and a week later at like 3 AM i get a text stating that the room mate had passed away. It just always makes me wonder why in life I have come so close to the edge and I consistently live to tell the tale. I am really grateful I know that. don't get me wrong i smile at the breeze and am in love with life i heard a neat quote in a commercial today relative to that something like I'd rather be ashamed of the things I've done than the things I haven't ...I don't think I have it quite right but that's the basic idea. i want to squeeze as much into this life as I can . i know I have to be careful and I'm healing but Im just slowly trying to keep pushing. a little harder all the time. TODAY was too much today was one of those murphy's law days. I can't even go into it because i think I'm just going to repress the memory of most of the whole day. The only thing that was good is I went to a really good lecture that was basically about mental supports as they apply to those with intellectual and developmental disabilities. Basically focusing on handling the problems of people who have mental diagnoses like anxiety or schizophrenia on top of them maybe having autism or cerebral palsy etc. A lot of the stuff is common sense but its always nice to have refreshers like that plus I went straight from my shift at work so it was more challenging because I was exhausted........I'm still pretty tired well off to go do it all over again
