So, i finished my bathroom 
I am going to post pics - sadly i didn't think and therefore have no picture of howit previously looked to show you. Duh. Still - its what i have come to expect of myself.
Yes, i am depressed. Again. It is about 7 weeks to download, and i still have the physique of a small hippo. I know men are supposed to like women with a bit of meat on there bones - but how much is too much? I'm pretty sure i am tipping the 'way too much' scale in a massive way. God damn. I have no idea why i am down. Andy is here, and being wonderful as usual. I'm just starting to feel old. I can't help but worry he will look at me one day and wonder what he is doing with me, and trade me in for a younger model. I know 5 years is not a massive gap, but it feels like it sometimes. God damn again.
Ah well. Fry should be coming to stay for a night next week, and work is going ok....which is good because i usually hate it. I just need to deal with my insecuries, which is easier said than done. Fuck Fuck Fuck.
MANY PEOPLE SEEM TO WANT TO COME AND STAY NEXT WEEKEND. PLEASE COME. ALL OF YOU. DESCEND ON BRIDLINGTON!!!
I am going to post pics - sadly i didn't think and therefore have no picture of howit previously looked to show you. Duh. Still - its what i have come to expect of myself. Yes, i am depressed. Again. It is about 7 weeks to download, and i still have the physique of a small hippo. I know men are supposed to like women with a bit of meat on there bones - but how much is too much? I'm pretty sure i am tipping the 'way too much' scale in a massive way. God damn. I have no idea why i am down. Andy is here, and being wonderful as usual. I'm just starting to feel old. I can't help but worry he will look at me one day and wonder what he is doing with me, and trade me in for a younger model. I know 5 years is not a massive gap, but it feels like it sometimes. God damn again.
Ah well. Fry should be coming to stay for a night next week, and work is going ok....which is good because i usually hate it. I just need to deal with my insecuries, which is easier said than done. Fuck Fuck Fuck.
MANY PEOPLE SEEM TO WANT TO COME AND STAY NEXT WEEKEND. PLEASE COME. ALL OF YOU. DESCEND ON BRIDLINGTON!!!
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Please don't start getting the 'feeling old' bug. That's my domain!! I'll be turning a whole 30 this year and it kind of terrifies me.
Your new profile pic looks great. I can see from that alone that you've lost weight hon. So you must be doing well for me to see from just a photo.
I don't plan on trying to get rid of the ticket for a while yet anyway so I shall keep you in mind right up until the deadline in case the situation changes.