angel_ree

So. Oddness all round.
Odd weekend yet again.
Friday was hard. As some of you know, someone very dear to me OD'd. I did my best to get her the help she needed, but its so hard when you don't have an address etc...i eneded up ringing loads of people from here trying to get hold of the right person! Still, she is home and doing better now. Chrissy - I love you to bits. I am always here if you need me. And that goes for you all, if anyone needs me, i'll do my best to help in whatever way i can. Friends are precious, and i want to be the best friend i can.
I went out friday night. Had a good night from what i remember, but i managed to get incredibly drunk on very little alcohol, despite having a massive tea! Odd...i then went xmas shopping in Hull with Natty Sat daytime, and spend what little money i have left this month. Eeep!!! Ah well, i go t some xmas pressies anyway
It was an old workmates wedding party last night. James married Helen in St Lucia last week, and then held the reception type thingy last night. They both looked so happy, and helen looked stunning in her dress. I must confess i was quite jealous, i would love to meet someone i feel i could spend the rest of my life with. However, my head being in the state it is now i find that unlikely! I'm still so not over the ex
This is not stopping annoying men though. Luke (the other ex) is still sniffing around. I love him dearly, but i really don't want a relationship with him. He gets so stroppy though when i tell him this and i have no idea what to do for the best. When we are just being friends its fine, but he tends to start implying we should be back together and it drives me mad.
Ian (the guy i met a few weeks ago) is lovely. He has been so good too me, taking me for drinks etc...i am attracted to him, but he isn't the man i want. He knows this - i've been brutally honest with him about the split with Mark, but i feel dreadful about it all. He really likes me, and i still don't know if i should carry on seeing him as a friend or not. I have no idea whats going on in my head, and i don't want to lead him on. Luke was asking me last night why i was seeing so much of Ian, and i ended up having a go at him. This is what he is like, jealous and tempremental (like me lol)...
Then to top it all off, Dug asked me out last night. Apparantly its been on the cards for a while (according to him lol). I said we could go for a drink (was a little drunk, but not much thank god) nbut this morning i am not sure this is the best course of action. He is great, but i simply don't want any kind of relationship with anyone at the moment. I hate my love life.
I have no idea what to do. The time i am able to move to London can not come quick enough...