Right. Weekend synopsis first...
Friday was terrible. I went out in Driffield with my sister and her friend. Got wasted, ended up screaming at my sister because some guy would not leave me alone. WTF??!! Like it was her fault! We have sorted it, thanks gods, but still. It was just a wrong night.
I was meant to be going to Sheffield Sat night, but couldn't face it after the events of Friday. Rach was supoosed to be taking me, and to say she was less than impressed with me is an understatement. She was livid with me for pulling out, despite my a) apologising profusely and b) trying to explain why i simply couldn't cope with going. I am very angry with her for her lack of understanding....but still.
Saturday (except for the rugby ) was amazing. I went out with Natty and her sister in law, but they ended up going home fairly early. I should have gone home as i had no money with me, but i ended up meeting up with a big group of my male friends who basically took me out with them around town, bought my drinks and generally made me feel like a goddess. I love them so much, it was just what i needed. After the recent break up i was feeling decidedly unattractive and crap. They made me feel great, and i had such fun! It was great, just what i needed
 ) was amazing. I went out with Natty and her sister in law, but they ended up going home fairly early. I should have gone home as i had no money with me, but i ended up meeting up with a big group of my male friends who basically took me out with them around town, bought my drinks and generally made me feel like a goddess. I love them so much, it was just what i needed. After the recent break up i was feeling decidedly unattractive and crap. They made me feel great, and i had such fun! It was great, just what i needed  
I'm feeling ok today, still thinking about the ex a lot. I'm told this will go on for some time. I'm usually over a break up pretty quickly, unhappily for me i don't think that is going to happen this time Still, i'll mend. I hope.
 Still, i'll mend. I hope.
Birthday Tuesday, think my parents are taking me for a meal, which should be fun. Then Halloween party Sat night, Manchester meet in december, god i can't wait!!! At least i have things to look forward too.
Next on the agenda - i big heartfelt emo thank you. The last few weeks have literally been hell for me. It has been a long time since i have been as depressed and low as i am at the moment. But the friends i have on here, old and new, have been incredible. You have supported me, listened to me moaning and crying, checked on me to make sure i am ok...simply been there for me. I don't know what i would have done without you all. I am blessed to have met you all. Many, many thanks xxx
    
  Friday was terrible. I went out in Driffield with my sister and her friend. Got wasted, ended up screaming at my sister because some guy would not leave me alone. WTF??!! Like it was her fault! We have sorted it, thanks gods, but still. It was just a wrong night.
I was meant to be going to Sheffield Sat night, but couldn't face it after the events of Friday. Rach was supoosed to be taking me, and to say she was less than impressed with me is an understatement. She was livid with me for pulling out, despite my a) apologising profusely and b) trying to explain why i simply couldn't cope with going. I am very angry with her for her lack of understanding....but still.
Saturday (except for the rugby
 ) was amazing. I went out with Natty and her sister in law, but they ended up going home fairly early. I should have gone home as i had no money with me, but i ended up meeting up with a big group of my male friends who basically took me out with them around town, bought my drinks and generally made me feel like a goddess. I love them so much, it was just what i needed. After the recent break up i was feeling decidedly unattractive and crap. They made me feel great, and i had such fun! It was great, just what i needed
 ) was amazing. I went out with Natty and her sister in law, but they ended up going home fairly early. I should have gone home as i had no money with me, but i ended up meeting up with a big group of my male friends who basically took me out with them around town, bought my drinks and generally made me feel like a goddess. I love them so much, it was just what i needed. After the recent break up i was feeling decidedly unattractive and crap. They made me feel great, and i had such fun! It was great, just what i needed  
I'm feeling ok today, still thinking about the ex a lot. I'm told this will go on for some time. I'm usually over a break up pretty quickly, unhappily for me i don't think that is going to happen this time
 Still, i'll mend. I hope.
 Still, i'll mend. I hope.
Birthday Tuesday, think my parents are taking me for a meal, which should be fun. Then Halloween party Sat night, Manchester meet in december, god i can't wait!!! At least i have things to look forward too.
Next on the agenda - i big heartfelt emo thank you. The last few weeks have literally been hell for me. It has been a long time since i have been as depressed and low as i am at the moment. But the friends i have on here, old and new, have been incredible. You have supported me, listened to me moaning and crying, checked on me to make sure i am ok...simply been there for me. I don't know what i would have done without you all. I am blessed to have met you all. Many, many thanks xxx
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      nixie_____:
      
      
      
    
  don't tempt me. i'm so close to quitting as it is!
      darwell:
      
      
      
    
  deal! just say where and when and i'll be there with bells on!   *jingle* *jingle*
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