Anyone fancy entertaining me with some lovely comments?
Had a very odd day today. Felt a bit better when i got up, i thought, hey, yus i can deal with this! I'm ashamed to say that it lasted for all of, ooh 10 mins before misery set in. This is getting ridiculous. When am i going to pull myself together? I keep hoping he will text me or email me, when i know full well he won't. He says he is keeping a respectful distance, which if true is fair enough. However, it just makes me feel worse. I am so pathetic.
Had a row with my Dad too, which didn't help. I came to stay here for a few days cos i din't want to be on my own, and then that. Great, just what i need on top of everything else. My computer is apparantly totally fucked, which does not make me happy.
My ex is harassing me again now i'm single. He even had the cheek to ask if he was the reason that we broke up. I wanted to punch him! What the fuck would it have to do with you, tosser! And for gods sake, why the fuck would i want to get back with him anyway? I have absolutley no desire to be with anyone right now. I'm finding it hard enough just to be with myself. I was awake for hours last night running over everything in my head. Of course, it solved nothing and only led to more tears and patheticness. And as a result i'm fooked again today.
At least i have been signed off work for a week. I went to see the doc yesterday, and he said that after the attempt at 'opting out' i possibly needed some time to myself. Good idea in theory, and i am grateful for it, but it gives me way to much time to mope. Saying that, i'd rather mope at home then be a biatch to everyone at work.
I may be moving to London sooner than i thought and hopefully with the lovely Pinklet. This is good, i'm so desperate to escape this town. Any advice in this area would be very well recieved
I don't have a lot more to say today. In fact, thats it.
Had a very odd day today. Felt a bit better when i got up, i thought, hey, yus i can deal with this! I'm ashamed to say that it lasted for all of, ooh 10 mins before misery set in. This is getting ridiculous. When am i going to pull myself together? I keep hoping he will text me or email me, when i know full well he won't. He says he is keeping a respectful distance, which if true is fair enough. However, it just makes me feel worse. I am so pathetic.
Had a row with my Dad too, which didn't help. I came to stay here for a few days cos i din't want to be on my own, and then that. Great, just what i need on top of everything else. My computer is apparantly totally fucked, which does not make me happy.
My ex is harassing me again now i'm single. He even had the cheek to ask if he was the reason that we broke up. I wanted to punch him! What the fuck would it have to do with you, tosser! And for gods sake, why the fuck would i want to get back with him anyway? I have absolutley no desire to be with anyone right now. I'm finding it hard enough just to be with myself. I was awake for hours last night running over everything in my head. Of course, it solved nothing and only led to more tears and patheticness. And as a result i'm fooked again today.
At least i have been signed off work for a week. I went to see the doc yesterday, and he said that after the attempt at 'opting out' i possibly needed some time to myself. Good idea in theory, and i am grateful for it, but it gives me way to much time to mope. Saying that, i'd rather mope at home then be a biatch to everyone at work.
I may be moving to London sooner than i thought and hopefully with the lovely Pinklet. This is good, i'm so desperate to escape this town. Any advice in this area would be very well recieved
I don't have a lot more to say today. In fact, thats it.
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savage:
hello 
how are you, hope I wasnt to moody, i felt really ill u have a good time?? It looks like im going to the hospital now to have them out instead 
how are you, hope I wasnt to moody, i felt really ill u have a good time?? It looks like im going to the hospital now to have them out instead 
killa_:
hey, i hope you feel loads better soon. i think moving to london will be great for you. will be fun and exciting, and new! *hugs*