Well, I'm sad, and it's probably wrong to pretend that I'm not.
My dear old cat may be out dying, and after all the years we have spent together, I'm not with her. I'm her 3rd owner, so I got her when she was already old, but we've had a good relationship, and she's been my only companion here at home. She stopped eating about a week ago, but I took her to the vet, and have been re-hydrating her with the drip bag thing, and it really seemed to bring her back to life, and she started really chowing down again.
Then today she had a really violent seasure, something I had never seen in a cat before. Poor girl : I held her in my arms until it passed, and after a while she seemed to get her wits about her again. She is not an outdoors cat, but she knows her way around the yard, so I brought her outside with me while I did some garden chores. She hung around for a while, and seemed not to be too distressed, and later I saw her go back in the house. But when I was finished outside, and went back in.....she was gone, and has not shown up yet.
It hurts me to be here, and know that she may have taken herself somewhere to die. She is in a lot better shape than she was a few days ago, so I worry that it may take her a while to pass away....and that I'm not there with her. It's time for bed now, and to have her not on the bed with me, as she has been for all these years, is going to be hard, and lonely as well.
It's possible that she will show up tomorrow, but after the events of the day.....I'm not counting on it.
I should be OK with the path she has chosen for herself, but I'm still sad, and wondering where, and how she is right now.
:- (
My dear old cat may be out dying, and after all the years we have spent together, I'm not with her. I'm her 3rd owner, so I got her when she was already old, but we've had a good relationship, and she's been my only companion here at home. She stopped eating about a week ago, but I took her to the vet, and have been re-hydrating her with the drip bag thing, and it really seemed to bring her back to life, and she started really chowing down again.
Then today she had a really violent seasure, something I had never seen in a cat before. Poor girl : I held her in my arms until it passed, and after a while she seemed to get her wits about her again. She is not an outdoors cat, but she knows her way around the yard, so I brought her outside with me while I did some garden chores. She hung around for a while, and seemed not to be too distressed, and later I saw her go back in the house. But when I was finished outside, and went back in.....she was gone, and has not shown up yet.
It hurts me to be here, and know that she may have taken herself somewhere to die. She is in a lot better shape than she was a few days ago, so I worry that it may take her a while to pass away....and that I'm not there with her. It's time for bed now, and to have her not on the bed with me, as she has been for all these years, is going to be hard, and lonely as well.
It's possible that she will show up tomorrow, but after the events of the day.....I'm not counting on it.
I should be OK with the path she has chosen for herself, but I'm still sad, and wondering where, and how she is right now.
:- (
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I couldn't stand up afterwards either because it was a thick layer of clear ice. I ended up having to kind of slide across the sidewalk so I could stand up on the road - surprisingly I didn't get at all dirty