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I think I'm going to go to California. It just feels like the right thing to do for me right now... I've spent so much of my life living it for other people, and that just hasn't turned out well.

I need something stable. I'm just sick of unstable forces in my life fucking things up. I have nothing stable here... But is leaving going to do anything in the way of stability? I mean, change itself isn't stable...

Oh well.


Whatever happens happens, and I'll do my best to roll with the punches.

I need better people in my life. HERE, I have, like, one or two really good people, and then a bunch back in New Jersey. But I really don't want to go back there... I mean, it's New Jersey... Yech.


Also, it's amazing how much Here We Go by Jon Brion cheers me up when I let someone or something get me down. It just reiterates the perspective I usually have and try to hold onto, I guess. It also reminds me of good people.

Unfortunately, EVERY time I slip into another perspective, I end up posting blogs, etc, so it makes me totally seem bipolar or something.

Oh well.