anchornhope

this morning i had the worst dream that i can remember having...when i was with my ex, i used to randomly have bad dreams about him, and a lot of the time he would wake me up because i was crying...the dream that i had was about him and for a little backround we broke up like 2 months ago after being together for 2 year, i did something that i shouldnt have done, and payed the ultimate price for it, and im still in love with him...so i had a dream that he came home (he is currently across the country) and i went to pick him up somewhere to bring him to stay at my house for some reason, i got there and he went to get in the car and then all of a sudden this girl came out of no where, and it was his new girlfriend. i stayed calm for as long as i could and we got back to the house and they were going to stay together in one of the bedrooms, i had to see them together for a whole day in my dream, i swear it was the longest dream ever. i know that he doesnt like it when im emotional so the whole dream i was trying to hide how crushed i was and had to hide when i couldnt contain my tears anymore. i finally woke up and couldnt believe how horrible i felt after that, the whole thing was so vivid and just stuck in my mind. i tried to go back to sleep but i just kept thinking about that dream, and then to make it all better, since i was thinking about it so much i had another dream about it but i cant even talk about it it was so painful... this situation of my life is just so complicated right now, and i just dont know what to do, i cant even escape it in sleep anymore.