I am going to say last night was drunken madness. Played softball and then went to the bar after, got trash and then woke up this morning. Somewhere in between at the bar and waking up, I drove home. SHIT
so, what exactly is the point of relationships...? if it's just going to end in heart ache.. why even put yourself out there to risk it?
you spend so much time with someone, and give so much of yourself and your heart to someone, care so much, get to know someone so well, share so many things, trust them.... and then what are you left with when it ends? [because you know it always ends]
nothing.
just a feeling of regret. like you've just wasted so much time.
you put so much time and energy into something that gets you nothing in return. and what for? you have nothing to show for it but a few scars and more emotional issues. maybe another brick to add to the wall that you've been building up around your heart each time you've been hurt.
mostly it just feels like... why did i just go through all that? especially if you can't even remain friends and it ends badly. when that whole time you thought you were so close to that person. but turns out they don't care at all. because people only care about themselves. lesson learned.
i see people breaking up, getting hurt, burnt, crushed, unrequited love... all the time. [especially in my own life] and i'm just starting to wonder... is it worth it? if in the end you are filled with so much pain and anger and someone makes you feel so bad about yourself when you know you don't deserve it, then really, why bother to begin with? why date at all, if it's just going to end like that?
the laughs, the fun, the romance, the smiles... it just doesn't seem to be worth it if it's not real. it's really just kind of... sad. a broken heart is more powerful than any good memory.
life is filled with enough disappointment as it is. why do we just continue to set ourselves up for more?
Sorry venting again.
Listening to so Joe Strummer, getting ready for work. Going to the Dodger game tonight with a great friend from work. Her and I have know each other since day one I started there. I noticed her wearing a Bouncing Souls shirt and thought damn that is my favorite band so what is she doing where them? I asked her and she said its her favorite band too. Boom the start of a friendship.
Later
Anarchy
So I went to the Dodger Game today. Got drunk and had a blast. I add some pictures later. I got one with me and a Cop. It fucking rocks. Going to watch the Joe Strummer Doc. Later
Oh BBQ Sunday My place starts at 3:30, I will provide the food, BYOB
so, what exactly is the point of relationships...? if it's just going to end in heart ache.. why even put yourself out there to risk it?
you spend so much time with someone, and give so much of yourself and your heart to someone, care so much, get to know someone so well, share so many things, trust them.... and then what are you left with when it ends? [because you know it always ends]
nothing.
just a feeling of regret. like you've just wasted so much time.
you put so much time and energy into something that gets you nothing in return. and what for? you have nothing to show for it but a few scars and more emotional issues. maybe another brick to add to the wall that you've been building up around your heart each time you've been hurt.
mostly it just feels like... why did i just go through all that? especially if you can't even remain friends and it ends badly. when that whole time you thought you were so close to that person. but turns out they don't care at all. because people only care about themselves. lesson learned.
i see people breaking up, getting hurt, burnt, crushed, unrequited love... all the time. [especially in my own life] and i'm just starting to wonder... is it worth it? if in the end you are filled with so much pain and anger and someone makes you feel so bad about yourself when you know you don't deserve it, then really, why bother to begin with? why date at all, if it's just going to end like that?
the laughs, the fun, the romance, the smiles... it just doesn't seem to be worth it if it's not real. it's really just kind of... sad. a broken heart is more powerful than any good memory.
life is filled with enough disappointment as it is. why do we just continue to set ourselves up for more?
Sorry venting again.
Listening to so Joe Strummer, getting ready for work. Going to the Dodger game tonight with a great friend from work. Her and I have know each other since day one I started there. I noticed her wearing a Bouncing Souls shirt and thought damn that is my favorite band so what is she doing where them? I asked her and she said its her favorite band too. Boom the start of a friendship.
Later
Anarchy
So I went to the Dodger Game today. Got drunk and had a blast. I add some pictures later. I got one with me and a Cop. It fucking rocks. Going to watch the Joe Strummer Doc. Later
Oh BBQ Sunday My place starts at 3:30, I will provide the food, BYOB