So its Monday, a fucking Hot day. As I sit here and tell you about my day I just start to think that if no one is reading this, that is fine with me. I am just getting crap off my chest. I think my blogs are for me and I let others take a small glimps into my world.
I woke this morning with a hangover, drank alittle to much. Went to work, it started off very busy. I had a lot of work so that kept me busy for most of the day. When I went outside for a smoke, i wanted to just turn around and head back in. It was so stuffy outstide in the fing Valley. I ordered a cheeseburger for lunch, took one bite and threw it all away. It tasted like shit. SO I went to Jamba Jucie an got me an orange-a-peel. while at work I started thinking about the girl i dated a few months ago.
Then I saw her outside walking to her car with some dude she works with and they must have taken off for lunch. Why does my stomach drop and I get butterflies every time I see her. I mean I dated her for a month, and it never got serious I think but I started falling for her. I guess I just want to be friends with her, I mean I have come to terms that we will never be again, but I still want to talk with her and hang out and shoot the shit, like we had done before. I just would love to talk to her one last time, in person, so i sent her a text message inviting her to my birthday party (well I sent to everyone in my phone book but i included her) I dont expect her to show actually I know she wont but there is something inside of me that would like to have her there or to hang out with her one more time. It sucks this girl has made me feel everything in the book and i cant get enough of it. I know I am rambling and i am not sad or looking of sorrows I just venting.
So Later at work I started falling asleep and then realize it was time to go. Now at home doing nothing. Started planning for wednesday. I think I am going to wear pink on my birthday. What do you think? Real men where pink? I am comfortable with my sexuallity and dont think pink is only for gay guys. Well we will see. I am going to the store tomorrow and looking of a pink suit or something.
Well I am done and starting to feel better now. Take care and if you are in the LA area your more than welcome to join me at the burgendy room on wed. the 18th at 10
A
Sorry if my rambling makes no since. Like i said, its for me I just allow you to read it.
I woke this morning with a hangover, drank alittle to much. Went to work, it started off very busy. I had a lot of work so that kept me busy for most of the day. When I went outside for a smoke, i wanted to just turn around and head back in. It was so stuffy outstide in the fing Valley. I ordered a cheeseburger for lunch, took one bite and threw it all away. It tasted like shit. SO I went to Jamba Jucie an got me an orange-a-peel. while at work I started thinking about the girl i dated a few months ago.
Then I saw her outside walking to her car with some dude she works with and they must have taken off for lunch. Why does my stomach drop and I get butterflies every time I see her. I mean I dated her for a month, and it never got serious I think but I started falling for her. I guess I just want to be friends with her, I mean I have come to terms that we will never be again, but I still want to talk with her and hang out and shoot the shit, like we had done before. I just would love to talk to her one last time, in person, so i sent her a text message inviting her to my birthday party (well I sent to everyone in my phone book but i included her) I dont expect her to show actually I know she wont but there is something inside of me that would like to have her there or to hang out with her one more time. It sucks this girl has made me feel everything in the book and i cant get enough of it. I know I am rambling and i am not sad or looking of sorrows I just venting.
So Later at work I started falling asleep and then realize it was time to go. Now at home doing nothing. Started planning for wednesday. I think I am going to wear pink on my birthday. What do you think? Real men where pink? I am comfortable with my sexuallity and dont think pink is only for gay guys. Well we will see. I am going to the store tomorrow and looking of a pink suit or something.
Well I am done and starting to feel better now. Take care and if you are in the LA area your more than welcome to join me at the burgendy room on wed. the 18th at 10
A
Sorry if my rambling makes no since. Like i said, its for me I just allow you to read it.
hearts,
Moxi