anarcha

So graduating is a really disappointing experience. I thought it was great to get that award and be done with it all... but now there is nothing awaiting me but the 'real world'-- bills, job hunting, loneliness. I applied to all these really cool jobs that totally met all my interests, but none of them have called me back (its been three weeks) so i'm taking this temp job at the Girl Scouts of America (so not me right?) where i'll be an office wench in the Education and Learning Services Department... that doesn't start until monday though. in the meantime i got this job lapdancing at private parties. the promoter guy is a total sleaze, but overall it's good money and i can handle myself. i even met another alumna of my little college on our first night there.... which was good becuz very few people in my life have had the strength to be supportive about this (hello... try actually doing it... would it kill you to be supportive?!) anyway, that's only gonna last a little longer... it's just to make some quick $$, it's such a tough job to be doing all the time... I went through a depressing spell these past few weeks but i'm working through it... i think once i start a normal job and get a routine going i'll feel alot better. I want a certain ex-prof to be back from his world travels... i didn't wait this long to graduate just to wait a few more months... jeez... okay i'll stop bitching...