I am starting to think I've lost my drive for film. I have been finding myself more and more drawn to photography recently. And, actually, I've always kind of had more of a love for the single moment captured than the whole of it, with movement and all. I love the idea and artistic freedom they both give me, and would love to persue both equally...but at this moment, I feel more attached to photography.

I have no idea what kind of bearing this has on my film-schoolness right now. Besides a lack of motivation, that is...in the long run, probably nothing.

The deciding factor of course is that I go up of portfolio review at the end of this semester. I am so afraid of the prospect of failing portfolio review...I don't think I've been this scared of anything in my entire life. If I fail, maybe I'll drop out of the University and apply to art school wherever ectasia ends up going to grad school...

*sigh*