i just was thinking, smoking with all u on here (the ones that leave me comments and shit) would be really cool because you all are so wounderful to me
and if u dont smoke and since most of you are older then me we could defintly do some... Read More
maybe the porn thing is a kind of perversion ... like straight guys who get off on gay porn ... for you, there is something wrong about it, but it is still sex. Also, your fantasies are based on what you know, and as of right now your greatest influenced is the standardized version of sex in america (straight sex; which you see on tv and movies and which makes up like 80% off all porn) ... you don't have the knowledgable sensation of a lover's touch to reference. So you go with what you know. Sure you can masterbate and get off, that's easy ... what's hard is getting your body and your mind on the same wavelength ... if you are worried about it, which in my opinion is silly, I think that once you have the expereience to reference the preference for porn and the fantasies will follow accordingly.
even though i sit here on my computer most of the day aside from my 1 customer and hour, i hate being here, i shouldent becuase im getting paid good but damn i just wish i was home or just not here, o well could be a lot worse, the problem is with not really doing work is time goen really really slow, 4 more... Read More
all my relationships with so called friends and family have the depth of a puddle
no one really knows me
if i told them everything
they would think i was crazy
and yes it has happened
and it sucks becuase i love people
and i want to please everyone
but ive relized by revieling my true self
i will upset people
this week has sucked, last week of school before break though just tons of work, i believe i will have passed all my classes and that one i thought i was gonna fail appartently the teacher gave me a break becuase i emailed him and was concerned bout my grade so he let me make up what i missed thank goodness