anais

Allo,
I am feeling ok at the moment. A bit anxious so I decided not to try and sleep yet since I hate laying alone with my thoughts for the 3 hours it takes me to fall asleep. Sniglet has been my buddy while BostonDave is on vacation. I let her sleep in bed and she snores like Big Bird. London and our friend Mike (look in my candids, gorgeous single dear) have really been there for me this week which makes me feel happy to have true friends in PDX. I've been all over the place mentally, things are out of control in my head, but I am trying and will attempt to learn from each moment. Trying to be responsible, work, pay bills etc. while living in my head is exhausting but def. makes for an interesting movie all for me. I just want to try and write somethings down again. It's so difficult to put my thoughts into words that paint the world I see each day. I keep thinking two things, who is to say the noise will end and why should I let what I've been dealt chemically destroy me. I'm proud of who I am, diseased and all. blah de blah, Marigold is beautiful!!!!
What a surprise. I stay up late and my set just went up, nice and a bit ironic considering the theme of my journal entry.
*Anais