Ugh,
These past two months have been so difficult and have made me sit down and realize how thankful I am for my life and Dave and that I am still here, being myself and chugging along. There has been so much change this week that has hit me all at once. I am stressed to the point where I have lost 15+lbs and am nervous all the time about life security, clinical depression, my bar changing ownership etc. I sit down every so often and think about the people in my life and realize how few people I find I can trust. Aside from family I really only trust Dave and my best friends 100%. I have made new friends in portland but I always have a sinking feeling. I'm babbling....basically I am taking a few days to myself to think about if I need to share myself anymore, with anyone aside from my best friends and most importantly, my husband.
I don't know what I am doing...when change gangs up on me I usually invite all of the other decisions I've been worried about to join in and get it over with in one mass hectic spell. I did have a lovely dinner with Siren this evening though, she is a sweetie.
So, hmm, yeah...my apologies, time for Anais.
*Anais
These past two months have been so difficult and have made me sit down and realize how thankful I am for my life and Dave and that I am still here, being myself and chugging along. There has been so much change this week that has hit me all at once. I am stressed to the point where I have lost 15+lbs and am nervous all the time about life security, clinical depression, my bar changing ownership etc. I sit down every so often and think about the people in my life and realize how few people I find I can trust. Aside from family I really only trust Dave and my best friends 100%. I have made new friends in portland but I always have a sinking feeling. I'm babbling....basically I am taking a few days to myself to think about if I need to share myself anymore, with anyone aside from my best friends and most importantly, my husband.
I don't know what I am doing...when change gangs up on me I usually invite all of the other decisions I've been worried about to join in and get it over with in one mass hectic spell. I did have a lovely dinner with Siren this evening though, she is a sweetie.
So, hmm, yeah...my apologies, time for Anais.
*Anais
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gingerlie:
i hope youre taking care of yourself sweetie. i havent seen you in forever. dont lose anymore weight or youre gonna get blown away by the wind.
twwly:
don't sink, honey.
