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Friday Oct 28, 2011

Oct 28, 2011
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So many hot girls going up as set of the day! I wanna be set of the day again... lol. It's hot.
Watching Bones and eating Pizza.
Grandma went in the ground today. I got pictures of stuff... but I'm pretty upset I was not there. But at least I'll get to visit soon. Don't know how i'll afford food, but I do have a plane ticket. I should think of things I can sell... however I've pretty much sold everything I own of value.

It's an okay day. Still have a hurt back and don't know why. I'm in smitten with someone. But it's funny. Because I think they like me alright. But every time I hangout with them I never know if it's going to be the last time. They are unclear of their intentions... and sadly I'm unsure as well, but sure enough to know I want more... or more in the long run. He's the kinda person that would not really talk about it. Not in a mean guy way... in a sweet way. We have only kissed once so I don't know if means anything... I hope it does... I would guess by how things are going he might let me into his life in six months to a year. I'm not pushing romance in my life right now and he's wonderful so I'll wait if it takes that long. I just hope it takes.

I wish I was less worried about fucking things up. I have good self confidence, but he's different. So if things went wrong it wouldn't really be my fault. But I still really want it to be okay. He's amazing... and I just have this.... feeling or something? I'm not sure. I need to give it time. It's hard to do that when your smitten. But it's what is needed. I will bug him next week and hopefully get more information. All I want to know is that he's not going away anytime soon. I would hate to keep falling for him and have him vanish without knowing why. But it might happen and I should be ready for that. But there is no way to be ready.

So I wait... And let myself be happy and look forward. And maybe next week I'll see in his eyes if he's at least going to give me a chance. He's really amazing. He has some idea, but not enough.

*sigh*

Now time for beer, bones, and pizza. AND school work. Can never do enough school work. Going to apply for jobs. Maybe I can get something X-mas seasonal or something.
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absolutelyzero:
Hey, no sighing! Just tell him already, before it's too late! I'd rather if a girl just told me how she felt, instead of keeping it to herself. If I feel I should say something to a girl (and reduce the amount of face palm moments), I tell her right away or else there won't be another chance.

In regard to your eating situation, you should be fine as long as you don't divulge into fast food tendencies every day. It's amazing how much money you can save, just by buying food at the grocery store.
Oct 29, 2011
poeticlicense:
hmm the girl can write
this is a good thing
protip: writers....write

Manifesto: Butt in Chair School of Writing

1. Put butt in chair every day
a. same butt
b. same chair
c. same time
d. same duration

2. Write. Or don't.

3. Resume civilian life.
Oct 30, 2011

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