Time for a fresh start.
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So. I spent all day cleaning the flat and later i am going to sort all through my wardrobe. I need to start again.
Its the first time i have been single in 3 years, its a bit daunting. I cant believe i had the guts to end it. 3 years is a long time. Plus we have a mortgage together and other financial committments, but you cant let things like that hold you back.
I have been floating through my life for the last, probably 2 years. Being carried along by my relationship, never really questioning the fact that i have felt something was wrong or something was missing.
I dont like confrontation and i dont like upsetting people so i had learned to live with it andget on with it.
I couldnt understand what was wrong, i did love him but it just didnt feel right. Then i realised that i loved him like a brother, like a friends, we hav so little in common that our relationship was never goin to work.
Ending it was one of the hardest things i have ever done, but recently i have realised that he isnt the only person in the world, and there are even ppl out there who have loads in common with me and make me laugh and smile. So i took a risk, and its gonna be hard but now i feel a weight has been lifted. We are being bery amicable, neither of us are silly enough to lose out financially so we are coming to an arrangement.
Advice to everyone: if it doesnt feel right, it isnt. If you are having doubts (even small ones) then listen to them. Dont just float through your life like i did, grab hold of every experince and every opportunity while you are long. You never know where it could take you. Being young is about following your heart and taking risks. I know that now.
I wasnt just in a relationship, i was engaged. I was planning my wedding. But i know i was only doing that because it was the natural next step and i just went along with it. And i was so bored with my life that organising something like that was exciting and taking my mind off things. Then one day the realisation hit me that i was going to get married... commit to this person who i wasnt even sure i wanted to be with. I had a bit of a reality check.
Im free now. Im startin over. Im learning new things... I had a text from one of my mates saying 'you do realise that every one of Marks (my ex) mates are actually in love with you dont you? You being single is the biggest event thats ever happened in the history of Wolverhampton! I am actually holding a sweepstake to see which of them will be the first to try it on with you. I am planning some kind of its a knock out event for them to all fight over you for a laugh'
Bless him. I doubt its true, he does tend to exaggerate. Same im not attracted to any of them lol!
So. I spent all day cleaning the flat and later i am going to sort all through my wardrobe. I need to start again.
Its the first time i have been single in 3 years, its a bit daunting. I cant believe i had the guts to end it. 3 years is a long time. Plus we have a mortgage together and other financial committments, but you cant let things like that hold you back.
I have been floating through my life for the last, probably 2 years. Being carried along by my relationship, never really questioning the fact that i have felt something was wrong or something was missing.
I dont like confrontation and i dont like upsetting people so i had learned to live with it andget on with it.
I couldnt understand what was wrong, i did love him but it just didnt feel right. Then i realised that i loved him like a brother, like a friends, we hav so little in common that our relationship was never goin to work.
Ending it was one of the hardest things i have ever done, but recently i have realised that he isnt the only person in the world, and there are even ppl out there who have loads in common with me and make me laugh and smile. So i took a risk, and its gonna be hard but now i feel a weight has been lifted. We are being bery amicable, neither of us are silly enough to lose out financially so we are coming to an arrangement.
Advice to everyone: if it doesnt feel right, it isnt. If you are having doubts (even small ones) then listen to them. Dont just float through your life like i did, grab hold of every experince and every opportunity while you are long. You never know where it could take you. Being young is about following your heart and taking risks. I know that now.
I wasnt just in a relationship, i was engaged. I was planning my wedding. But i know i was only doing that because it was the natural next step and i just went along with it. And i was so bored with my life that organising something like that was exciting and taking my mind off things. Then one day the realisation hit me that i was going to get married... commit to this person who i wasnt even sure i wanted to be with. I had a bit of a reality check.
Im free now. Im startin over. Im learning new things... I had a text from one of my mates saying 'you do realise that every one of Marks (my ex) mates are actually in love with you dont you? You being single is the biggest event thats ever happened in the history of Wolverhampton! I am actually holding a sweepstake to see which of them will be the first to try it on with you. I am planning some kind of its a knock out event for them to all fight over you for a laugh'
Bless him. I doubt its true, he does tend to exaggerate. Same im not attracted to any of them lol!
Heres a my little pony tat to lighten the mood. I want the most revoltingly sickeningly girly sleeve you can imagine. This is giving me ideas lol
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best get my back finished before i start on that ventur tho