amyquinn

So 2013 has not gone quite to plan so far but spose still 6months to go. Its crazy how you can think everything is going amazingly and you finally feel like you are managing to leave the past behind you when it comes out of no where and smacks you in the face! Ive cut out the negative from my life physicaly but when its a close family member I guess you never really cut them out mentally. I cant pin point when it started but for the past 4minths anxiety has become my nearest and dearest which means the only time I left my home was to go to work and panic attacks were a daily fear. After a very long and scary attack the boy convinced me to go to the doctors, at the time i was very disapointed that the only help the doctors offered me was counselling sessions that would cost me 50 a pop. But it did make me realise that I no longer wanted to go on like this and I would have to get better on my own so I slowly forced myself out of the flat and stared to socialised more. I am definatly feeling better but I feel like I need to put my energy into more positive past times.
Ive always believed in karma and nature so looking more into this i have started to study buddhism. Im no way saying this is something I will follow but im certaintly very interested in the outward thinking and how selfless it make s you.

Other things to make me feel better is starting my sleeve ink this sat.