today was kinda a day of very small disapointments.
I got a bedroom done on the house which is good but i hate working while others are standing around doing nothing.
Andrew got his car back but its not really fixed after the week he/we were without it.
hung out with friends while running earons which was fun.... But when we got home they started playing a 6 hour board game. which left me alone to cook them dinner then finish some things around the house. I've made them dinner and they wont even stay to help around the house.. i've spent more on food for them then for myself and i didn't even end up eating the dinner cause there wasnt enough left over when i was done cleaning.
I got a new camera today but i'm not happy with the picture quality at all so i'm returning it.
A friend came up to help clean the house but when he showed he started playing the game with the others... which meant they started over...
Oh and Josh (the one i have a harmless crush on) told me he likes one of my very good very married friends April. It was good that he confided in me but kinda crushing in some really strange way. he's always kinda been my stand in BF and it ruins the illusion to know he likes someone that is almost my sister. I mean april and have lead very similar lives and turned out very similar. we're kinda like same sex soul mates... so to know she has his attention over me... kick to the ego
It's ended up feeling like no one had time for me today... even in random IM chats. Even on the phone to E. tonight... he had to go cause April called... yeah she's calling my fiance cause she's lonely and so is he... and i'm left sitting in my room with friends to busy to notice me and a boyfriend talking to some other girl... who i love.. but i don't trust women.
Yes i'm being incredably woe is me and selfish...
I got a bedroom done on the house which is good but i hate working while others are standing around doing nothing.
Andrew got his car back but its not really fixed after the week he/we were without it.
hung out with friends while running earons which was fun.... But when we got home they started playing a 6 hour board game. which left me alone to cook them dinner then finish some things around the house. I've made them dinner and they wont even stay to help around the house.. i've spent more on food for them then for myself and i didn't even end up eating the dinner cause there wasnt enough left over when i was done cleaning.
I got a new camera today but i'm not happy with the picture quality at all so i'm returning it.
A friend came up to help clean the house but when he showed he started playing the game with the others... which meant they started over...
Oh and Josh (the one i have a harmless crush on) told me he likes one of my very good very married friends April. It was good that he confided in me but kinda crushing in some really strange way. he's always kinda been my stand in BF and it ruins the illusion to know he likes someone that is almost my sister. I mean april and have lead very similar lives and turned out very similar. we're kinda like same sex soul mates... so to know she has his attention over me... kick to the ego
It's ended up feeling like no one had time for me today... even in random IM chats. Even on the phone to E. tonight... he had to go cause April called... yeah she's calling my fiance cause she's lonely and so is he... and i'm left sitting in my room with friends to busy to notice me and a boyfriend talking to some other girl... who i love.. but i don't trust women.
Yes i'm being incredably woe is me and selfish...
monkeyboye14:
You're not being selfish. You are just having the kind of self doubt and worry that everyone goes through. You ask yourself questions about your feelings and that is something most people don't do. That makes you pretty fucking grown up and aware in my book.
badangela:
I think it is badd that no one bothered to help with house work. It sucks when some one crushes your ego by talking to you about some one else they like. At least you know why you are feeling the way your are.