Monday Mar 12, 2007

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Ok this is me RANTING i don't mean to hurt anyone her. please read with a grain of salt.

OK i know my life has issues. I use this my blog and the web to vent about said issues. I don't ask anyone to support me unless they want to and i ask in return that no one point out said issues. I KNOW WHAT THEY ARE> I"M WORKING ON THEM AT MY OWN PASE> IT IS NOT UP TO ANYONE THAT DOES NOT KNOW AND OR LOVE (real love)ME TO POINT OUT THE HARSH REALITY THAT IS MY LIFE>

I do not come here for pitty i come here for release. I come here to a bunch of people that can choose to talk to me or not to say hey this is shitty. If you don't like that about me Leave me the fuck alone. Don't think its your responsability to say hey your being a whine ass I KNOW I AM. I'm being a whine ass on here to save my real friends and loved ones that have to see me the dread of listening to me bitch. Am i useing you? YES I AM. deal with it or leave me alone.

Cause here is the thing. I do it for you. I listen to your problems i read your blogs and if i have something to say that i actualy think you wil want to hear and should hear i tell you. If you ask me for my oppinion i tell you. BUT I WAIT TILL I"M ASKED. I have always been the person that says hey are you ok? I have always been the one to listen to whats wrong. BUT don't jump down my throught because i've chosen to bitch on the open forum that is the internet.

and on a more personal note. Heres the truth i don't through in your face.

SPOILERS! (Click to view)
who the hell are you to tell me I need to be more self relient and less co dependent when your the one that was considering leaveing everything behind to give your freedom of choise up to some one you hardly knew! Your right i don't crave solitude but news flash neither do you. I don't lie to my self and convince myself its my own choice when i'm alone. I LIKE PEOPLE. I thrive on attention. I"m ok with that. I'm ok with exnolidging good and bad thats who i am and how i work. I'm not trying to stuff myself in to this mold of how i should act. i'm just me. You go on thinking that you're life is great and your independent and don't care what people think or feel about you. We both know thats bullshit. We both know that if you had the smallest glimmer of love you would climb mountains for it and you too would feel lonely when its 3000 miles away.

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badangela:
I always read your rants. I think this is the best place to be able to do that. I lke to comment when I think I have something worth while to say. Keep on ranting I enjoy reading your rants. I also think to some degree every one thrives on attention to some extent and so we should we wouldn't be human if we didn't. Stay honest kiss
omeganightmare:
thankx, I hope it will help too.

Yah sound like yah can use a hug as well *hug*

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