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Edit: I'm crashing... all of a sudden the rush of lonelyness comes back. Danm it danm it danm it. To make it worse my mind keeps jumping around to topics i don't want to think about... two of which i wont even right about... ARGHHH


So i have a few friends here in Rochester that i LOVE dearly.

One is Andrew. He's the one thats helping me fix up this house and staying with me. He's also the one that will be moveing to CA at the end. He's a big big dork. Like gamer dork. He loves movies has a dry sence of humor and can always make me laugh. He's kinda like a brother that i helped raise. We met on his second day of college. at first i thought he was weird and quiet. But now i don't know how we would have lived with out knowing eachother.

Then there is Dave. Dave used to be part of a couple. We never liked his girlfriend but we were always there to do the couple things with them. Dave is a good simple person. Honest and up front. Love that man. Also met him when he was a freshman in college.

There is Liese. He's a strange bald man whos not bald. Strange is really the only words to describe him. He's loveable and analitical. He went for school to be a social studies teacher but is now teaching survaval skills in the pokanos. He was E.'s best friend sence he was 5. Things are weird between us. We're friends but i think he'll always see me as the girl...

Then there is Josh. Josh is the type of man i always looked for before i stumbled across E. He's smart funny kind and honest. He's in to music and movies. We met at the same time dave and andrew came around... But we were friends sence the first day. I think i've always had a bit of a crush on him to be honest.

Any how Dave stopped over in the morning. It was happy dave the one that laughs and smiles all the time. The one that gets excited to talk about windows vista. It was nice to see him. I hadn't seen him since we moved to CA. He helped up drive cross country. He's been pretty down sence the break up and it was great to hear him smile.

few hours after Dave left i heard the door shut. I thought it was andrew but then i heard a Hello of a fermilure voice. It was josh. I ran to give him a hug. It was one of those embrases that kinda felt like comeing home. The last time i had seen him was 6 moonths ago. He had been on co-op and told me he wasn't going to see us before we left for CA. He had said that he couldn't afford the drive. I balled my eyes out. He drove all night from boston to spend the last weekend with me. He just wanted to surprise me) Turns out he came to see us (andrew is staying here too) before he even went back to his dorm apartment this time. He's been on co-op and hasn't seen his roomates in 3 months... but he came to see me first. I made us all dinner and we sat and caught up. We've always had this thing of sitting in the kitchen while i cook, Talking and laughing. I missed that sooo very much. Any how after dinner we went to watch TV. All the guys have differnt ways of picking on me. Andrew just laughs at the million and one stupid ass things that come out of my mouth pointing out every time i'm wrong. Leise does that too but in a different way. Josh and i have always had this not so suddel flurtation between us, tickling and pokeing, lightly hitting. While we were watching tv that started up again. I braided his hair and he tickeled and poked at my knees and face and arm. I tell him he's a pain in the ass but really he gives me butterflys most of the time. Its like haveing a crush in highschool. Secretly i LOVE that feeling, but its also kinda sad. I'm with one of his best friends and even if something happend between E. and i josh would be off limits. He really is the type of guy i saw myself in. He even sings (which is the secret key to my heart)
Any how he just left about an hour ago and i'm crashing. I got a taste of physical contact which i hadn't hasd in a week and i want more! Eh thats life i guess.