amymay

so we tried to talk to his parents tonight.. It didn't go so hot. I ended up telling them they had a horrable family that didn't know how to talk to eachother. I don't know if they will ever forgive me for that one. Oh wel
Then E. and i made the rediculous ideal to get drunk. It felt great for about an hour then i tried to suduse him tried ot be the dominat one... iguess i wanted to be control of something in my life. It didn't work i ended up layin next to him as he fell asleep. That is untill he woke up and said i'm not confortable forced me out of bed and rolled over. ... thats what i diserve.

Now i feel unwanted by him, his famaily and like my father trying to escape from the harsh realty of life...
but ignore me i'm just drunk and the screan is spinning... what do i know or feel.