amymay

I just spent my night talking to my first love matt... I'm ... missing the feeling of first love. The strength of it. He's also a very close very old friend. I miss him. I think we met to young. It tied our lives together but sometimes i think not the way they were supposed to be. Sometimes i wonder if he was the one. Maybe not for this life but for a different one. I wonder if thats the reason i dont trust the love E. and i have. Its so different from that first time.
Love with matt was a wonderful seafood dinner. It was dilisious but not sustaining not filling
Love with E. is rice. bland but nurisioing.

but nights like this... i miss shrimp. I miss arms that smuthered me in love.

I'm not saying i don't love E. or that anything he does is wrong. Some of you have met him he's a great guy.

I just i think there is something wrong with me.