I've had sooo much on my mind lately i hardly known where to start. So i did what i always do when things get overwhelming i hid.... This time it was in a book, next time will be this painting i've been stairing at for far to long.
Speaking of paintings.... Anyone want to email me a picture of them orgasaming. Females only please. I want to do a series of just faces durring intence arowsel and orgasam. What is more beautiful, telling, honest or raw? If it doesn't get shown or sold in the first year i'll give you the picture. No real names will be used.
ok here is the shit storm
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I've been trying to think about the wedding but it just seems overwhelming. Some details... it in Long island. Its for over 200 people its sept. 2nd and it has to be stunning. Honestly all i want is 40 of our closes friends and family sitting around a huge table with music and conversation and good wine. That NOT what its going to be. E.'s father is paying for a bit over half and there for half the guest list is his clients. So our wedding has to stack up against the ones he's gone to for them(the clients) and thier children. The last one they went to was in Scottland! it sounds like a free pass to have a beautiful big glamerous wedding. But thats not E and I. E. and i like big dinner parties with candels and wine and friends. With food we cook and laughter. The idea of not knowing half the people at my wedding is killing me. So is the fact that because my families wedding flatware and china isn't kosher i wont be able to eat with it. My mother my grandmother and my great grandmother did. But i (the lastfemale) wont be able to. I can't even walk in to a florist and talk about my ideas because its across the country. Uhg I just want a happy wedding but i am sooo not look forward to planning it.
I've been thinking about friendship soooo much lately. I'm hungry and thirsty for it. I used to thrive on conversation. I suck at makeing friends but i thought once i had made a connection with people i would know how to keep it... I don't.
In the middle of writting this i lost yet another online friend. This time becase i didn't agree with his other online friend and he picked sides.
The other day it was some one who desided to stop talking to me cause i hadn't been up her ass telling her things would be ok when she was haveing a hard time... (as if i was in a diferent situation)
And ofcourse last week there was my british man that made me feel special but in the end had no real feelings for me or our friendship
WTF what the hell is the point of putting effort in to makeing connections when they get taused aside like disgaurded softdrinks. I know i've made some friends here and online in general but i honestly feel like crawling in to a whole and saying fuck it.
If you already don't know about it, you might want to check the website:BeautifulAgony. It's all about faces of people orgasming.