Ok i don't even know how to begin this blog...
Thursday was E. and I's x mas together. We decerated the tree and opened gifts. He got a new keybord socks and Narnia, Oh and me. I got puppy and barstools. It was really low key and quick. I think we kinda just did it to get it out of the way.
Friday was LONG! Thanks for all the wonderful comments on my set. I promised some one i would do one so i hope they liked it. Puppy was GREAT in the car. He pretty much slept most of the time. Our room in bakersfeild was upgraded cause the desk clirk was hitting on E. Which is really funny cause i can't imagen anyone randomly hitting on E. he looks kinda scary at first. He got the room key and she told him she'ed be in the bar in 45 mins. He said maybe he'ed stop down with his girlfriend... We pretty much just passed out when we got in the room.
Sat started great. but then we hit trafic at barstow. Stop and go from there to vegas... it was LONG! Up untill then it was nice E. and i talked like we used to. About nothing and everything. Once the driveing went bad so did the conversation. But i guess thats how it always is.
We got in to Vegas around 5ish. Seeing Tasha was.. kinda like going home. She hasn't changed a bit. She's really down to earth and laid back. So is her husband Mark ( I had forgotten how fucking hot he is), they're really perfect for eachother. Tash likes E. which is good. We stayed up talking long after the boys went to bed. It was fun and confertable and just nice too see her again. I found out the deal with my father and his father... my father's father was just resently found and then died... but he would only clame my uncle as his own not my father. So dad was raised by only my grandma. To be honest I never really knew anything about my fathers childhood. Grandma was a big slut and a bigger drunk while he was younger never really around. She's different now but apparently was wild for a long time. Kinda makes things with my dad make alot of sence. I keep finding myself thinking of it. Maybe he just doesn't know how to treat women... or be a father. I also found out alot about Tasha's view on dad.. We're in agreement. We acknowledge that he fucke us up as kids but the most we can do now is accept and move on and make our own choices .. better ones. She doesn't go out of her way for him but doesn't not see him either. I'm working on doing the same thing. She just started a company selling commersial doors in Vegas. So now he is working for her. Its kinda fitting. He's the reason all us girls are in to consturction and know our way around a hammer. and now he's working for her. Its kinda the one thing he gave us. We all wanted his aproval so kinda acted like one of the boys around him. Its weird. Talking about dad and growing up and life, finding out she is haveing problems conseaveing... It felt like haveing family again.
Sunday was bakeing day. Apparently the get together each christmas eve and bake like mad people for the fallowing day. Kathy (mark's sister and the thierd busieness partner) also goes. I was nervouse to see Tracey my other sister and Dad. She's the good kid so dad stays with her in vegas. She's still the same too... Nerotic and a bit fake. But i got the warmest welcome i could hope from her. Things have always been touchy with us. I think she thinks I'm the reason her mom and our dad never stayed together. Really dad's just one of the men that jump from woman to woman. The bakeing was fun but it kinda felt like i was left out of the circle. Inside jokes i just didn't get and lots of whispering and conversations stopped when i entered. E. hung out with the husbands and watched football... they like him. Bobby (Tracy's step son) is going to be a dork when he grows up. He already plays WoW and i'm now the cool aunt cause I and E. play. SO much baked goods where made....
Sunday night Tasha and i stayed up again talking and cooking normal dinner for x mas. We talked about mom. and her mom's death. I love my mom but we talked about how ... crazy she is. Guiltgiving and over protective. Tash can kinda see where I'm comeing from when i say I love her but have to treat her like a child at times.
Christmas was BUSY. With lots of people I was half family and half strangers with. I met Marks parents. They are wonderful people. Dinner was great... I don't know.. just kinda felt lonely and out of place. I missed mom alot. When i called to talk to her i could tell she was devistated to be alone (even wayne had to work). I asked Tracy and Tasha to talk to her. Tracy and Mark joked about trying to make it as short as possable like it was painful for her... Really hurt. Tasha talked to her for a while which was good but tracy and mark talked so much shit (i joined in abit because i didn't want to ... i guess i wanted to fit in) that Marks parents thought i didn't even like my mom. I sat them down and told them i loved her dearly but she was just haveing some issues letting go of me. It broke my heart. My father barely talked to me but kept looking at me and smileing... I think he liked that i was with them. it was our first x mas together in 15years! I did up stocking for them like old times but i fucked up cause i added wine and tasha and mark don't drink it. oops. Dad gave me money... like always. And tash gave me a pretty necklace and gave E. and "neck messager" that i think is going to make a great vibrator.
We were going to go down to the strip but didn't make it. Maybe next time. Insted we left x mas night and drove back to bakersfield.
Today was just a long drive... quiet.
I'm kinda numb now. And i still feel like i'm driveing
OH and thank you Panthro for the goody box.... He sent me PORN YAY Its my first official porn thats not ... well... a bit pirated but shhhh don't tell him. Also gave me the best card with stickers and confedey and everything! I'm SOOOO HAPPY at this moment. Now i have something to test out the "Back Messager" with HEHE
I hope you all had wonderful holidays and i hope New Years Rocks your world!
EDIT: did you know jesus was a jew?~ Jay~ I'm in love with kevin smith again... its been a while but clerksII is completely back to the roots.. LOVE IT.. yeah i know its been out for a while what can i say i'm slow.
Thursday was E. and I's x mas together. We decerated the tree and opened gifts. He got a new keybord socks and Narnia, Oh and me. I got puppy and barstools. It was really low key and quick. I think we kinda just did it to get it out of the way.
Friday was LONG! Thanks for all the wonderful comments on my set. I promised some one i would do one so i hope they liked it. Puppy was GREAT in the car. He pretty much slept most of the time. Our room in bakersfeild was upgraded cause the desk clirk was hitting on E. Which is really funny cause i can't imagen anyone randomly hitting on E. he looks kinda scary at first. He got the room key and she told him she'ed be in the bar in 45 mins. He said maybe he'ed stop down with his girlfriend... We pretty much just passed out when we got in the room.
Sat started great. but then we hit trafic at barstow. Stop and go from there to vegas... it was LONG! Up untill then it was nice E. and i talked like we used to. About nothing and everything. Once the driveing went bad so did the conversation. But i guess thats how it always is.
We got in to Vegas around 5ish. Seeing Tasha was.. kinda like going home. She hasn't changed a bit. She's really down to earth and laid back. So is her husband Mark ( I had forgotten how fucking hot he is), they're really perfect for eachother. Tash likes E. which is good. We stayed up talking long after the boys went to bed. It was fun and confertable and just nice too see her again. I found out the deal with my father and his father... my father's father was just resently found and then died... but he would only clame my uncle as his own not my father. So dad was raised by only my grandma. To be honest I never really knew anything about my fathers childhood. Grandma was a big slut and a bigger drunk while he was younger never really around. She's different now but apparently was wild for a long time. Kinda makes things with my dad make alot of sence. I keep finding myself thinking of it. Maybe he just doesn't know how to treat women... or be a father. I also found out alot about Tasha's view on dad.. We're in agreement. We acknowledge that he fucke us up as kids but the most we can do now is accept and move on and make our own choices .. better ones. She doesn't go out of her way for him but doesn't not see him either. I'm working on doing the same thing. She just started a company selling commersial doors in Vegas. So now he is working for her. Its kinda fitting. He's the reason all us girls are in to consturction and know our way around a hammer. and now he's working for her. Its kinda the one thing he gave us. We all wanted his aproval so kinda acted like one of the boys around him. Its weird. Talking about dad and growing up and life, finding out she is haveing problems conseaveing... It felt like haveing family again.
Sunday was bakeing day. Apparently the get together each christmas eve and bake like mad people for the fallowing day. Kathy (mark's sister and the thierd busieness partner) also goes. I was nervouse to see Tracey my other sister and Dad. She's the good kid so dad stays with her in vegas. She's still the same too... Nerotic and a bit fake. But i got the warmest welcome i could hope from her. Things have always been touchy with us. I think she thinks I'm the reason her mom and our dad never stayed together. Really dad's just one of the men that jump from woman to woman. The bakeing was fun but it kinda felt like i was left out of the circle. Inside jokes i just didn't get and lots of whispering and conversations stopped when i entered. E. hung out with the husbands and watched football... they like him. Bobby (Tracy's step son) is going to be a dork when he grows up. He already plays WoW and i'm now the cool aunt cause I and E. play. SO much baked goods where made....
Sunday night Tasha and i stayed up again talking and cooking normal dinner for x mas. We talked about mom. and her mom's death. I love my mom but we talked about how ... crazy she is. Guiltgiving and over protective. Tash can kinda see where I'm comeing from when i say I love her but have to treat her like a child at times.
Christmas was BUSY. With lots of people I was half family and half strangers with. I met Marks parents. They are wonderful people. Dinner was great... I don't know.. just kinda felt lonely and out of place. I missed mom alot. When i called to talk to her i could tell she was devistated to be alone (even wayne had to work). I asked Tracy and Tasha to talk to her. Tracy and Mark joked about trying to make it as short as possable like it was painful for her... Really hurt. Tasha talked to her for a while which was good but tracy and mark talked so much shit (i joined in abit because i didn't want to ... i guess i wanted to fit in) that Marks parents thought i didn't even like my mom. I sat them down and told them i loved her dearly but she was just haveing some issues letting go of me. It broke my heart. My father barely talked to me but kept looking at me and smileing... I think he liked that i was with them. it was our first x mas together in 15years! I did up stocking for them like old times but i fucked up cause i added wine and tasha and mark don't drink it. oops. Dad gave me money... like always. And tash gave me a pretty necklace and gave E. and "neck messager" that i think is going to make a great vibrator.
We were going to go down to the strip but didn't make it. Maybe next time. Insted we left x mas night and drove back to bakersfield.
Today was just a long drive... quiet.
I'm kinda numb now. And i still feel like i'm driveing
OH and thank you Panthro for the goody box.... He sent me PORN YAY Its my first official porn thats not ... well... a bit pirated but shhhh don't tell him. Also gave me the best card with stickers and confedey and everything! I'm SOOOO HAPPY at this moment. Now i have something to test out the "Back Messager" with HEHE
I hope you all had wonderful holidays and i hope New Years Rocks your world!
EDIT: did you know jesus was a jew?~ Jay~ I'm in love with kevin smith again... its been a while but clerksII is completely back to the roots.. LOVE IT.. yeah i know its been out for a while what can i say i'm slow.
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I laughed my ass off...
Jeff Anderson knocked it out of the park on this one.