amymay

Ok so i had the talk with E. I"m going to make this short as possable

Me-You hurt me
E-I didn't mean to i was just kidding
Me- I don't feel special anymore
E- why
Me- I think i'm broken
E- i don't know how to help
Me-I don't thinki'm supposed to feel sad all the time
E- what do you want me to do about it
Me- we don't talk like we used to
E- we're not the same people
Me-but i miss those people
E- well to be that person i need to have energy bounced back at me. You ask me why i'm so happy playing wow its cause those people are happy and that makes me happy. You know i reflect your mood. We mirror eachother. So i don't talk to you and read insted so i don't have to go to bed depressed at night.




all in all its all my fault... again.

i'm going to look at the local satalite school and see if i can take some drawing courses to meet people
E's putting me on his insurance so i can see a shrink
I'm thinking of asking for happy pills.... But its kinda like admitting defeat.

i'm all sorts of foggy and my head hurts...