amymay

This is about to get very graphic so if you don't want to know about my sex life skip the nex paragragh.



I can understand a guy not likeing anal and i can understand a guy not wanting to recieve, but how does a guy just not get it?So E wanted to be persuided to pick up my parents from the airport which means he would do it he just wanted sex in return. I take issues about doing this cause it makes me feel cheap and used when i don't want to feel cheap and used but i got over it so my mom would have a ride. Anyhow.. I put on my cute voice and craweld over hands an knees to him. One thing led to another and five min later as i was finally getting wet he was getting off. He said he wanted more later and i layed there on our bed waiting. Wet and waiting. Out of no where the thought occurs "i feel cheap and a bit dirty anyhow anal would be wonderful tonight." Now its been years sence i've had real anal and it always made me quake. It would give me the type of orgasam that would make your knees weak and you would want is a pillow to lay your head on for sleep. Sence sleeping has been an issue and so has orgasams I really wanted to give it a try. I've been slowly working him up to the idea for months now. Trying to get him confortable with my ass and with my pussy for that matter. By this time its been a half an hour and i'm still sitting there soked in my own arousal dreaming of being able to find an orgasam with a man i want to marry. So i call to him. I explain "Hun, I was hopeing we could try something different tonight. I realy am in the mood for it but you'll have to be pashent and listen to me and i can explain how to make it work. He's excited by the idea at first but then quickly looses his hard on. He tells me to wait another 20 min. I try to understand and wait there patently still aroused. 20 min later he comes back and though its nothing to be proud of its a hard on none the less. Now i should mention .. last condom. we have one go at this.
I tell him to fuck my pussy to use my arousel as lubricant. I tell him to start slow and let his body weight easie his cock in to me. At first its going ok. It became painful for a moment (the good kind of pain that i know wont last) but when i winced and told him hold where he was he paniced and withdrew. And then he gave up trying. I told him it was fine, he took off the condom and i asked if he wanted me anyhow (But he would have to pull out -im in the safe week) He told me no. He had only gotten hard because i wanted it. I asked him again if this was something he was confertable with. He said yes. He said he just doesn't understand it. he doesn't
"get it" I was so frustrated.. i did still want it.. and i wanted him any way. So i took a shower and finished myself. why can't i teach him how to touch me.. if i give him instructions he gets so excited he goes to soon. If i suddaly try to moan loader when its good and not when its not good he doesn't take notice. So how do you do it... how do you teach a man how to touch you?



Ok on with the rest of the day. It was a nice day. I worked out side and then came in to put of christmas decorations and finish cleaning. Your all probably thinking i'm nurotic with cleanlyness... or that i''m the messiest person around. Well its only when parents are come that i get this obseseve... I ironed the napckins today. And made gourds in to candle holders for a centerpiece. Days like today make me feel like Joan cleaver. Still way to much to do tomarrow. then mom comes tomarrow. night.. I"m sooo happy and yet kinda wish it was all over..
Anyhow if i don't get a chance before thursday... HAPPY THANKSGIVING or as my Aussie friend would say. Go kill an indian. (not meant to be disrespectful to anyone just to the holiday that is made on lies)


(Edit)
There is something about 2am... as soon as it strikes i get so lonely it doesn't matter how good the day is all i want to do is be with some one.. held you know.. BAH.