I just had the weirdest dream, and wanted to explain it before I forgot all about it. I don't know what it's supposed to mean:
First of all, the whole dream focused on flashback/flash forward --- It was supposed to take place in the first year of University, but I already knew that I had been thru the 4 yrs, already, and that I was well well past University life (in fact, it's been about 14 yrs since I went for my freshman year). The entire thing was SO vivid, I can't beleive it's not real.
Next, it was set in Australia. I didn't go to Australia during college, but I did spend a semester in England.
Also, what happens in the dream is focused mostly on my relationships with people (who I know, how I know them), and my memories of college years life with them.
Note, in retrospect, I don't REALLY know any of these people, but in my dream I was 100% vividly certain that I knew them outside of the dream state, tho I obviously don't. Ok, not true, one person I do, perhaps another, but whatever.
I don't recall how the dream started, I think it drifted from one dream about a huge kitchen within someone's house (Karen Kornfeld, whom I knew from growing up, and whom I knew well in my semester in England, and travelled with for 2 months after that semester)....It was their home kitchen, but after counting the 6 or 10 ovens and work space near them for prepping, I assumed no longer that they were just really rich, but that it was in fact a classroom. somehow this morphed into me walking around a small, hilly town with rocky streets, and I knew it was the start of College (fall).
I saw this girl I know, she was shopping for knick knacks (there were open carts on this street selling things) - and I knew her immediately. I knew her for years now, but it seemed like she was as young as if she were a freshman. I introduced myself as she & a guy I knew came around the cart, and we were walking down the street. The guys said before she could "Matt, of COURSE we know you, it's US!" (meaning, I know them in the present), and I said "yeah, well, I guess I'm just trying to be polite, since this is the first moment that we met all those years ago" and she smiled & gave me a hug.
Then I kept walking down that street, which led into a loooooong path down a hill - must have been 8 miles thru woods till the end...as I was walking, I encountered an older man, white hair, patchy thin white & brown beard, who was limping, with a cane. I immediately knew him as a professor I had had, and immediately had a flashback of him teching, and being in long discussions with him in office hours, but then I recall him falling ill and dying, and suddenly I snapped out of the memory, and I didn't say a word - I kept walking and talking with him, as if he were new to me, and he was peppering me with ?s as all good professors do to learn the intelligence of the student....it seemed strange that he didn't recognize me, as the guy & girl had before. I then confided in him, that if he didn't freak out, I would tell him something unbelieveable. He agreed, and I explained that I knew him, and how I had met him 'at the start of my 4 yrs', and of the conversations we had had, etc...I didn't mention his death...after hearing me, he explained "yeah, that's very possible - the world, and timing in it and of it, often works out of order."
We continuted the walk down the long hill, and all the while, we ran into other students. I knew many of them, and over and over I had this flash back/flash forward...during the walk, we ran into a tennis court type of area, where a brawny guy (reminded me of friend Scott Rompala, whom I met long after college) was using rocks to try to throw at lizard-like creatures who were perched on telephone wires in 4 rows over the court. He'd hit one with a stone, knock it off it's perch, and hit it with a second stone to kill it. I introduced myself, had a flash back/forward about years later hanging out, then walked on. Saw about 20 dogs & cats that had been paralyzed or killed by the lizard things...
Still walking down the path, one section seemed to be the inside of a train car, with one seat on each side of the aisle, and name tags (initials) above it. I walked by a guy who was seated that I used to know well in college, haven't heard from him since. Pat O'Brian. I got all excited, told him it was me, and gave him a huge hug and exuberant greeting. He had no idea who I was, and was sort of offended. I explained he'd learn who I was in a few weeks, and we'd be drinking buddies for years in school, etc....I had the memories in my head, but the timing wasn't right for present day. I saw there was an open seat in front of him, and told him who would be sitting there, someone I knew from high school in Stamford (I didn't actually know him, tho in the dream I did), and then realized Pat had no clue or concern what I was discussing, so I moved along. I saw a few more people like that, greeted, had flashbacks/forwards, and then the train turned back to dirt & rock trail, and there was a small lake. For some reason, after the dream continued for a while with me talking to the old professor, who looked even older, and met some more students on the path by this lake, I went back into the train, all the way back up to Pat, said something to him, and felt it didn't matter since he couldn't know about the next 4 years, then returned to the path by the lake.
I ran into some girl who I remembered dating. This was our first meeting, and she actually sort of remembered me, oddly enough, and I gave her my telephone #, saying "now let's not have 3 more years of back and forth not having our timing right". So in a sense, here I was, trying to alter the future. Interesting concept for this dream. I felt more & more for the rest of the dream that things were slightly changing, and that with each introduction I made and said the 'i know you' thing & details that I game, I felt a challenge to my conscience - I felt that I was doing what I had originally, meeting these people, but I was altering the outcome of things with my comments & my knowledge, and that started to wear on me mentally/emotionally for the rest of the dream.
So, out by the lake, I continued to walk all the way to the bottom with these new/old friends, and suddenly, there was a shoreline in front, and a few roads at the bottom of this hill path. I found myself standing with a group of people, some guys, some girls in this thick brown vine overhang, and I was saying that I know where we are, whats ahead, etc...a girl said "prove it". So I explained to them all that on of the professors had a store attached to a house, if you go out of the vines, down to the water, take a right, then first left, onto the peir, then into the red house/store, which has __, __ and ___'s in the cases, and it's got ___ & ___ on the walls, etc...She was impressed, and we all went. Just before we left the vines, this girl made native american body paint, and applied it to everyones face, including mine - I didn't want it, I explained, she said "well, if you know where you are & what's gonna happen, what's the difference?" So I had the stuff put all over my face, then we went to the water, then the right, the left, onto the peir, into the store/house, and the professor was having a huge party - there were freshman students all over the store, all sitting around, with beers and drinks, all made/sold in Australia.
As I sat down, I had a flash back/foward to a time when there was a similar hangout, and only a few professors and a few students were there. I remembered running back and forth the legnth of the store with a girl - we were playing some game, like in gym where you touch the lines & then come back to one point to touch the paint...it was sort of like that...the girl in the flashback had longer hair, but I remembered all at once her name was Sarah, and I snapped out of my flashback - crying out "Wait!!! You're Sarah. THAT Sarah!?! With an "H"...She said of course it was she. I suddenly found myself doing two things -- 1) playing with her hair, seeing how short it was (obviously I recalled it being longer, and I couldn't ever remember our 'real' first meeting, and here it was!), and 2) forcing back tears HARDCORE, as I knew she'd be dead within 3 years, and I couldn't believe I had the amazing opportunity to relive 3 more years with her. The feelings were so real & are so overwhelming that I'm tearing up right now as I type this out. I don't know what happened to her, but I needed some fresh air so I stood up & walked outside.
Suddenly, I'm at a Frank Zappa concert for all the freshmen, and somehow I have a personal talk with Frank, and he's making me a mixed CD burnt off of vynal albums, of his favorite songs. Next thing I recall, I was speaking to his wife who was holding the concert now alone, as Frank was off recording for me, and then I woke up.
When I awoke, I immediately tried to remember the dream. I tried to recall if I knew any of the people in it. I didn't for the most part. Then I tried to think of what I would do if I could have this situation, where I could redo college. Fell asleep thinking about that (it was 4am).
I'm not sure what it means. Is it about friendships? Is it about sparing myself from doing things a second time when I know what the outcome will be (ex: West Virginia Girl @ airport tomorrow)? I have no idea.
First of all, the whole dream focused on flashback/flash forward --- It was supposed to take place in the first year of University, but I already knew that I had been thru the 4 yrs, already, and that I was well well past University life (in fact, it's been about 14 yrs since I went for my freshman year). The entire thing was SO vivid, I can't beleive it's not real.
Next, it was set in Australia. I didn't go to Australia during college, but I did spend a semester in England.
Also, what happens in the dream is focused mostly on my relationships with people (who I know, how I know them), and my memories of college years life with them.
Note, in retrospect, I don't REALLY know any of these people, but in my dream I was 100% vividly certain that I knew them outside of the dream state, tho I obviously don't. Ok, not true, one person I do, perhaps another, but whatever.
I don't recall how the dream started, I think it drifted from one dream about a huge kitchen within someone's house (Karen Kornfeld, whom I knew from growing up, and whom I knew well in my semester in England, and travelled with for 2 months after that semester)....It was their home kitchen, but after counting the 6 or 10 ovens and work space near them for prepping, I assumed no longer that they were just really rich, but that it was in fact a classroom. somehow this morphed into me walking around a small, hilly town with rocky streets, and I knew it was the start of College (fall).
I saw this girl I know, she was shopping for knick knacks (there were open carts on this street selling things) - and I knew her immediately. I knew her for years now, but it seemed like she was as young as if she were a freshman. I introduced myself as she & a guy I knew came around the cart, and we were walking down the street. The guys said before she could "Matt, of COURSE we know you, it's US!" (meaning, I know them in the present), and I said "yeah, well, I guess I'm just trying to be polite, since this is the first moment that we met all those years ago" and she smiled & gave me a hug.
Then I kept walking down that street, which led into a loooooong path down a hill - must have been 8 miles thru woods till the end...as I was walking, I encountered an older man, white hair, patchy thin white & brown beard, who was limping, with a cane. I immediately knew him as a professor I had had, and immediately had a flashback of him teching, and being in long discussions with him in office hours, but then I recall him falling ill and dying, and suddenly I snapped out of the memory, and I didn't say a word - I kept walking and talking with him, as if he were new to me, and he was peppering me with ?s as all good professors do to learn the intelligence of the student....it seemed strange that he didn't recognize me, as the guy & girl had before. I then confided in him, that if he didn't freak out, I would tell him something unbelieveable. He agreed, and I explained that I knew him, and how I had met him 'at the start of my 4 yrs', and of the conversations we had had, etc...I didn't mention his death...after hearing me, he explained "yeah, that's very possible - the world, and timing in it and of it, often works out of order."
We continuted the walk down the long hill, and all the while, we ran into other students. I knew many of them, and over and over I had this flash back/flash forward...during the walk, we ran into a tennis court type of area, where a brawny guy (reminded me of friend Scott Rompala, whom I met long after college) was using rocks to try to throw at lizard-like creatures who were perched on telephone wires in 4 rows over the court. He'd hit one with a stone, knock it off it's perch, and hit it with a second stone to kill it. I introduced myself, had a flash back/forward about years later hanging out, then walked on. Saw about 20 dogs & cats that had been paralyzed or killed by the lizard things...
Still walking down the path, one section seemed to be the inside of a train car, with one seat on each side of the aisle, and name tags (initials) above it. I walked by a guy who was seated that I used to know well in college, haven't heard from him since. Pat O'Brian. I got all excited, told him it was me, and gave him a huge hug and exuberant greeting. He had no idea who I was, and was sort of offended. I explained he'd learn who I was in a few weeks, and we'd be drinking buddies for years in school, etc....I had the memories in my head, but the timing wasn't right for present day. I saw there was an open seat in front of him, and told him who would be sitting there, someone I knew from high school in Stamford (I didn't actually know him, tho in the dream I did), and then realized Pat had no clue or concern what I was discussing, so I moved along. I saw a few more people like that, greeted, had flashbacks/forwards, and then the train turned back to dirt & rock trail, and there was a small lake. For some reason, after the dream continued for a while with me talking to the old professor, who looked even older, and met some more students on the path by this lake, I went back into the train, all the way back up to Pat, said something to him, and felt it didn't matter since he couldn't know about the next 4 years, then returned to the path by the lake.
I ran into some girl who I remembered dating. This was our first meeting, and she actually sort of remembered me, oddly enough, and I gave her my telephone #, saying "now let's not have 3 more years of back and forth not having our timing right". So in a sense, here I was, trying to alter the future. Interesting concept for this dream. I felt more & more for the rest of the dream that things were slightly changing, and that with each introduction I made and said the 'i know you' thing & details that I game, I felt a challenge to my conscience - I felt that I was doing what I had originally, meeting these people, but I was altering the outcome of things with my comments & my knowledge, and that started to wear on me mentally/emotionally for the rest of the dream.
So, out by the lake, I continued to walk all the way to the bottom with these new/old friends, and suddenly, there was a shoreline in front, and a few roads at the bottom of this hill path. I found myself standing with a group of people, some guys, some girls in this thick brown vine overhang, and I was saying that I know where we are, whats ahead, etc...a girl said "prove it". So I explained to them all that on of the professors had a store attached to a house, if you go out of the vines, down to the water, take a right, then first left, onto the peir, then into the red house/store, which has __, __ and ___'s in the cases, and it's got ___ & ___ on the walls, etc...She was impressed, and we all went. Just before we left the vines, this girl made native american body paint, and applied it to everyones face, including mine - I didn't want it, I explained, she said "well, if you know where you are & what's gonna happen, what's the difference?" So I had the stuff put all over my face, then we went to the water, then the right, the left, onto the peir, into the store/house, and the professor was having a huge party - there were freshman students all over the store, all sitting around, with beers and drinks, all made/sold in Australia.
As I sat down, I had a flash back/foward to a time when there was a similar hangout, and only a few professors and a few students were there. I remembered running back and forth the legnth of the store with a girl - we were playing some game, like in gym where you touch the lines & then come back to one point to touch the paint...it was sort of like that...the girl in the flashback had longer hair, but I remembered all at once her name was Sarah, and I snapped out of my flashback - crying out "Wait!!! You're Sarah. THAT Sarah!?! With an "H"...She said of course it was she. I suddenly found myself doing two things -- 1) playing with her hair, seeing how short it was (obviously I recalled it being longer, and I couldn't ever remember our 'real' first meeting, and here it was!), and 2) forcing back tears HARDCORE, as I knew she'd be dead within 3 years, and I couldn't believe I had the amazing opportunity to relive 3 more years with her. The feelings were so real & are so overwhelming that I'm tearing up right now as I type this out. I don't know what happened to her, but I needed some fresh air so I stood up & walked outside.
Suddenly, I'm at a Frank Zappa concert for all the freshmen, and somehow I have a personal talk with Frank, and he's making me a mixed CD burnt off of vynal albums, of his favorite songs. Next thing I recall, I was speaking to his wife who was holding the concert now alone, as Frank was off recording for me, and then I woke up.
When I awoke, I immediately tried to remember the dream. I tried to recall if I knew any of the people in it. I didn't for the most part. Then I tried to think of what I would do if I could have this situation, where I could redo college. Fell asleep thinking about that (it was 4am).
I'm not sure what it means. Is it about friendships? Is it about sparing myself from doing things a second time when I know what the outcome will be (ex: West Virginia Girl @ airport tomorrow)? I have no idea.