When you said you loved me, did you really love me or did the words just spill out like drool on my pillow. Cause I was naked when you said those words, but I felt covered in your whispered worship. And as you passed out fast on my shoulder, I imagined a child waiting so sad and still for her mom to arrive. Did she leave you an orphan, in that big, brown leather chair? Said, Dont you move a muscle, kid, Ill be back in twenty years, You were scared, you were lonely, but you mustve been aware; life is a series of calluses, this is just another layer. So, build them up, tough it out, yeah, thats your skin dont let anyone under there.
When you said you needed me, did you really need me or was it just someone oh, youd take anything. Am I first on that list of yours, or am I second, or third? So, whos that ahead of me, some guy from Pittsburgh? Or Detroit, Santa Fe, or San Diego? I know youre so alone, but how much affection does one girl really need?
Did you date a lot in high school? Were you always chasing boys? Couldnt you find some young valentine to steal your heart for good? Were you content, or contemptible? Are your memories pleasant, or is it a string of endless flings of bitter resentment. Seems that what you want and what you need gets stuck between your lack of good judgement.
When you said youd hurt me, did you think you hurt me? Are you really that cocky? Oh, what a heartbreaker! Well, Ive got my armor yeah, Ive been through some battles before and I met your old boyfriend, he said, Dont bother. He told me you told him youd hurt him.funny, how familiar. So, how much of this relationship was rehearsed?
Did you act out as a child? Were you always crying wolf? Attention-starved, you tried too hard to get someone to look. Now youre the wolf in second-hand clothing; Im the sheep in a black t-shirt. Its an awkward form of payback, but if it works for you it works. Its that I recognize your off-white lies, still, I lie beside you....
and thats what really hurts.
*changed to fit the situation as I seemed appropriate*
When you said you needed me, did you really need me or was it just someone oh, youd take anything. Am I first on that list of yours, or am I second, or third? So, whos that ahead of me, some guy from Pittsburgh? Or Detroit, Santa Fe, or San Diego? I know youre so alone, but how much affection does one girl really need?
Did you date a lot in high school? Were you always chasing boys? Couldnt you find some young valentine to steal your heart for good? Were you content, or contemptible? Are your memories pleasant, or is it a string of endless flings of bitter resentment. Seems that what you want and what you need gets stuck between your lack of good judgement.
When you said youd hurt me, did you think you hurt me? Are you really that cocky? Oh, what a heartbreaker! Well, Ive got my armor yeah, Ive been through some battles before and I met your old boyfriend, he said, Dont bother. He told me you told him youd hurt him.funny, how familiar. So, how much of this relationship was rehearsed?
Did you act out as a child? Were you always crying wolf? Attention-starved, you tried too hard to get someone to look. Now youre the wolf in second-hand clothing; Im the sheep in a black t-shirt. Its an awkward form of payback, but if it works for you it works. Its that I recognize your off-white lies, still, I lie beside you....
and thats what really hurts.
*changed to fit the situation as I seemed appropriate*
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doolittle:
hey, i've joined up with sg (finally) and i just wanted to say hey. i've finally made it. 
inara:
Huh?