amory

Hmmmmm. I am very deep in thought about many things right now. I was asked by the president of my compnay to switch sides, from customer service rep. to co managing the technical support department. More money more problems. I know I wont have time to do school full time and that as well so I'm stuck.

I got three random emails when I got to work today. One made me really sad, even though I think they only had good intentions when they wrote it. One was from someone I really miss and was short but made me smile. And one made me smile for about ten minutes in a row like a cheesy idiot. All in all it was nice to read all of those Monday morning when I got to work. My friends are the best. I think I'm always looking for things at the wrong time with people. Its the story of my life. Like, yeah, I really like you but its bad timing. Or they do the same thing to me. Just once wouldn't it be nice to have someone who consistently liked you? and you liked them the same, you were on the same level? I think about that constantly. If you have seen Gareden State you will understand a little bit more about what I mean.... I feel like Natalie Portaman in that movie. A little naive, really quorky. I am random and hyper and goofy when I'm around my friends. Straight up weirdo. And I get emotional about people. I get hurt easily. I really don't want to get hurt by people anymore. I'm done. If you want to be my friend then awesome. REALLY, honestly awesome. But no more back and forth. No more.

It seems like the bad comes with the good. Someone stole alot of money from me... really ticked me off. My school schedule got really messed up. My little brother is staying with me and using me, taking money as he pleases and never giving anything back.

It might not be really great or I might not be really happy, but I have those people and those little things that put a smile on my face and balance it out and make me think that everything will be ok.

it will be ok.

And i'm good with that.