amory

Tonight fucking blew.

I got to go to my exs party, get to see one of my old really good friends.... and they were totally hitting on each other. And the current boy that likes me was there too and it was really weird. Not that i would be really upset about... its just sneaking aroung my back about it sucks.

On top of that the ex gives me the big motivational speech about my life... which was needed and I appreciated so much.... but then he tells me how they are "just friends" and then I put two and two together and realize they had been making out all night. Lies, lies, lies.

You tell me to be honest and forward and good then you lie to my face. Fucking awesome.

And i'm sure i hurt the guy who likes me.. i hurt his feelings i think. Guys just dont understand Im not ready for something right now.

My heart hurts. Physically. Seriously I have a pain in my chest because i've taken on so much this week.

But it will get better. Things will look up. Im on the verge of a break through. I can feel it. You guys will see so many great things from me.

You'll see.