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I need to talk to you if you get this tonight.

I guess I am incapable of leaving on a silent note with anyone.

I just wanted to say that I think you are a wonderful girl, with an extreme amount of potential (as you know I've felt this since I've met you). You were and still will be a big part of my life. And I want nothing but the best for you, and I hope that from now on you can make decisions that are going to do good for yourself. You're very selfless, but sometimes you need to focus on YOU. And I think most of the time that you think you are doing things for YOU, you really aren't. You just say that you are so that people won't hassle you about it.

I feel I need to sever ties with a lot of people right now, because of the lack of involvment. Not just from you, but from many...so instead of moping about it, and dwelling as I have done in the past, I've decided to just let go, and/or take a break. I need to get my life on track, as anyone our age probably needs to, and I can't do that when all I do is worry about my friends and their needs and their lives. I worry about you so much it stresses me out.

I need to start doing things for myself, and pushing myself harder. Everytime I think I'm going to, I get scared and run, and I don't want to do that anymore...so until I change a few things about myself, I don't want to expose myself, or be exposed to many people right now, because I don't feel I am good for some, and vise versa.

I wish you the best of luck in all your endavours, and if you ever need me, I'm a phone call and drive away and will always be there for you. I love you and always will...and I hope that this is not an ending, but a break to a new beginning between us. I hope that when we become friends again, it is stronger than ever and that we have gotten through our current hardships and learned to be more humble and passive people. I also hope that you and I can laugh about all the things we've made into such big deals, because if you look at the big picture, a lot of what we've fought over, and even had good times over, won't really matter in the long run.

Please take care of yourself.

Hopeless isn't a word I know.

I'm in a testimonial mood today. Take care.

at my work i prey that those chaotic things will stop happening for a minute.
once i did get to go home because there was a bomb threat.

You remind me of me. Except my work involves sun, heat and physical work alot.

So its pretty natural for me to wish for the random earthquake in Arizona when im way hungover off of three hours of sleep out in the sun 8)

oooh, i love the shins...especially the new album chutes to narrow...thats hot shit right there.

im not feeling good today, i had a fight with my friend anissa about "us"

i freakin love ths shins
i want to find more of them doing covers

dammit dammit dammit! wish i'd gone.
oh well.

dude, that party was the lamest ever! let's roll to the hip hop clubs my nizzle!!!! yay!

Oi! I missed it.

Farking shit! It just said "the Farker made me take it off"....hmmm. Interesting..... Have a good weekend!

I had so much fun last night. Sorry Gay Paul Rudd and friends couldn't make it...maybe you can bring them to the 80s shindig. That would be so many shades of happy.

well I figure I should go, since I'm the olny one old enough to really remember the 80's

Duder, you missed it last night when Chris came out. Janie and Julie yelled at us for making out too much in the bar.

Of course it was just 'cuase they were way jealous.

Chris yelled that stuff at you guys?

He's totally coming out tonight. How else am I gonna get home?

Puke... ha.

Hope today isn't too shitty.

He does look like Paul Rudd! Good call.

And by the by, Paul Rudd- so fucking hot.

I called and it went straight to your voicemail...and I called Karen during Cammy's birthday party, and I wasn't invited over...so yeah. And I was told you were interested in going to the roller derby and you said no...so all in all, i didn't get a peep.

your night sounded rockin...my weekend was pretty fresh i guess...except for all the driving i had to do

thats good news that u like ur job...good luck

glad to hear things are going well and that you are happy , i'm busy this weekend but i'd like to show you my new place sometime, gimme a call ♥

Wow V.! I can totally relate to your last entry....I feel the exact same way on the whole relating to people thing. None of the blasting music and dancing around for me, though. You are indeed a person that I could be good friends with if I knew you in person. At least you're my friend here, and that is awesome! Take care and have a good week!

Mmm, Pain pills! My weekend was good. Thank u.
How are you doing sweets?