I am the eternal designated driver.
It's 2:14 AM and I'm back at home now, sitting on my bed on the floor listening to Pinback with the window open while the rain drizzles on the plants below. I don't mind the fact that I'm always going to be the designated driver, but I can't help but feel a little alien. The older I get, the...
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It's 2:14 AM and I'm back at home now, sitting on my bed on the floor listening to Pinback with the window open while the rain drizzles on the plants below. I don't mind the fact that I'm always going to be the designated driver, but I can't help but feel a little alien. The older I get, the...
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bettina:
They were all out of dessert when we went. How crazy is that?
mnislahi:
I hope you liked the friends i remind you of. 
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malloreigh:
Right there, that's a lot of really good-looking people.
God, I just went and looked at my VeganChallenge profile... that's so old. That's at least two websites ago. I could rant about all the things that are bad about not being vegan, but that's my honest reason. ^_^
I said to my roommate yesterday, in all honesty and candid openness, "I think my life is enriched by the existence of avocados. If there were no such thing as avocado, my life would be significantly less awesome."
God, I just went and looked at my VeganChallenge profile... that's so old. That's at least two websites ago. I could rant about all the things that are bad about not being vegan, but that's my honest reason. ^_^
I said to my roommate yesterday, in all honesty and candid openness, "I think my life is enriched by the existence of avocados. If there were no such thing as avocado, my life would be significantly less awesome."
committed:
Bring back to life a flame that now is dead
Blows in my mind like he hasnt left
Express yourself, speak a word to me
Eternal wait without a prize for me
Scared of silence of my mind
Sleeping hard and wasting time
World is empty Moon please take me
Would you take me would you take me!
Bitter taste of memories to face
Nothing of me in you has remained
I never left a mark on someones life
Only infected scratches Its such a shame
Scared of silence of my mind
Sleeping hard and wasting time
World is empty Moon please take me
Would you take me would you take me!
(I'm lame and I write poetry..it's called the Darkness)
Blows in my mind like he hasnt left
Express yourself, speak a word to me
Eternal wait without a prize for me
Scared of silence of my mind
Sleeping hard and wasting time
World is empty Moon please take me
Would you take me would you take me!
Bitter taste of memories to face
Nothing of me in you has remained
I never left a mark on someones life
Only infected scratches Its such a shame
Scared of silence of my mind
Sleeping hard and wasting time
World is empty Moon please take me
Would you take me would you take me!
(I'm lame and I write poetry..it's called the Darkness)
I wish I could speak in photos and music instead of words.
Words are so over-rated and lacking in impact.
Words are so over-rated and lacking in impact.
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b_complex:
feel you on that one, my friend.
stormy:
oh you are such e tease my darling
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spunion2012:
I have an old birkenstock injury
chai:
strange?
how do mean that??
how do mean that??
Its funny. Yesterday I was writing in another journal about how I often thought about getting hit by a car on my bike. Well on my ride this morning I actually hit/got hit by a truck.
I was riding down NE Broadway immediately in front of my friend Brandons apartment when a truck that was driving parallel with me accelerated in front of me and...
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I was riding down NE Broadway immediately in front of my friend Brandons apartment when a truck that was driving parallel with me accelerated in front of me and...
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sadfaceclown:
"....causing me to collide with the back of the truck."
So did you get hit by a car. It sounds more like you ran into a car.
So did you get hit by a car. It sounds more like you ran into a car.
daversion:
sucks. good to hear that you're okay and (relatively) unharmed, and that you didn't, like, die... in teh fase or anything.
i have yet to be involved in any collisions with vehicles (*knocks on pressed-wood desk*), but i've had a few near-misses. mostly annoying, somewhat frightening. lately, my near-misses have been when i'm on my own two feet. just the other day a fast-moving SF muni bus turning onto 280-NB next to balboa park BART almost made yours truly into road pancake.
i have yet to be involved in any collisions with vehicles (*knocks on pressed-wood desk*), but i've had a few near-misses. mostly annoying, somewhat frightening. lately, my near-misses have been when i'm on my own two feet. just the other day a fast-moving SF muni bus turning onto 280-NB next to balboa park BART almost made yours truly into road pancake.
Sometimes I wish I would die in a freak accident or get hit by a car. Ever since I've been old enough to conceptualize dying in some tragic way I've fantasized about it. The odd thing is that I don't do this because I'm depressed and suicidal. It's actually quite the opposite to tell the truth. I have no fascination with pain or discomfort, I...
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alyssum:
I know what you mean about that. It's so interesting and bizarre... The thought that one moment, you're a living/breathing/moving human being. The next, you turn into an inanimate object.
The thing that was the most fascinating about watching my brother die was that he knew it was coming and basically chose the timing after a fashion. He was told he had X amount of time or he could have one more probably-futile attempt at chemo. He chose not to have to do that again. He bought the car he'd always wanted (a big deal as he was a big money-saver) and told everyone goodbye (got to see several old friends he'd lost contact with). At some point there was a decision made that would mean he'd have to have a hospice nurse or be moved to the hospital. It was clear at that point he decided that was it, it was time to go. Within about 12 hours, he did. He didn't wither, he wasn't in pain, it was like he just turned off the light and then he wasn't there anymore. There's no way he could really have explained that process to anyone, it's not something most people will ever be able to experience. I'm very glad to have been able to watch it, it was a rare and exciting thing in a very weird and difficult sort of way.
[Edited on Sep 15, 2005 9:04AM]
The thing that was the most fascinating about watching my brother die was that he knew it was coming and basically chose the timing after a fashion. He was told he had X amount of time or he could have one more probably-futile attempt at chemo. He chose not to have to do that again. He bought the car he'd always wanted (a big deal as he was a big money-saver) and told everyone goodbye (got to see several old friends he'd lost contact with). At some point there was a decision made that would mean he'd have to have a hospice nurse or be moved to the hospital. It was clear at that point he decided that was it, it was time to go. Within about 12 hours, he did. He didn't wither, he wasn't in pain, it was like he just turned off the light and then he wasn't there anymore. There's no way he could really have explained that process to anyone, it's not something most people will ever be able to experience. I'm very glad to have been able to watch it, it was a rare and exciting thing in a very weird and difficult sort of way.
[Edited on Sep 15, 2005 9:04AM]
mamabunny:
whoooa. Thats like, exactly how i feel, but written really well. I have some issues with attention span, and putting thoughts to paper, er, text. 
Like, the most recent odd occurance happened when i was driving home one night. I live in a somewhat rural area and my friend REALLY lives out the middle of no where. But anyway, Im driving home, and the train tracks run parallel to the road. I see this train just chargin down, and so i sorta start racing with it and tryin to beat it. At a point down the road, i have to cross the tracks onto another road. Then i just start thinking, yeaaaaaa! im gonna get in front of it and maybe it'll hit me!
So i pass it up, turn, just as the lights and sounds are going off, and the thingy goes down, i slam on my breaks and it just flies by me. I then start thinking, dude wtf? WTF? WWWWTTTFFFFF is wrong with me!? Why in hell was i thinking it would be cool to get hit by that train?!?! Thats so crazy. Also, i must say, as you have, this wasnt any kind of suicidal thing, or desperation or whatever. I just honestly, thought it would be neat. Yeah. Call me crazy.
[Edited on Sep 16, 2005 4:53PM]
Like, the most recent odd occurance happened when i was driving home one night. I live in a somewhat rural area and my friend REALLY lives out the middle of no where. But anyway, Im driving home, and the train tracks run parallel to the road. I see this train just chargin down, and so i sorta start racing with it and tryin to beat it. At a point down the road, i have to cross the tracks onto another road. Then i just start thinking, yeaaaaaa! im gonna get in front of it and maybe it'll hit me!
So i pass it up, turn, just as the lights and sounds are going off, and the thingy goes down, i slam on my breaks and it just flies by me. I then start thinking, dude wtf? WTF? WWWWTTTFFFFF is wrong with me!? Why in hell was i thinking it would be cool to get hit by that train?!?! Thats so crazy. Also, i must say, as you have, this wasnt any kind of suicidal thing, or desperation or whatever. I just honestly, thought it would be neat. Yeah. Call me crazy.
[Edited on Sep 16, 2005 4:53PM]
I feel like shaving my head and going skydiving over the Pacific.
arden:
please don't shave your head
Under my sarcastic "i don't give a fuck" smartass facade, I'm the sappiest, dorkiest, retartedly hopeless romantic that you'll probably ever meet. Sometimes that's a good thing, sometimes it's just lame and I feel like an idiot.
As for the time being, I see to have worked myself up into a gigantic crush.
I spent the weekend in Seattle, riding trains back and fourth and...
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As for the time being, I see to have worked myself up into a gigantic crush.
I spent the weekend in Seattle, riding trains back and fourth and...
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fallen1carus:
oooh girl, we have GOT to talk, i see.
bankerboy:
I saw this and thought of you:
Decompression is just a fancy way of saying "Come down off all the drugs I did."
No wonder it doesn't apply to me.
No wonder it doesn't apply to me.
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b_complex:
You are soo cool. I wanna be just like you when I grow up. 
lexie:
you are super cute 
I am so sore. My whole body aches from moving and working out and running around like a crazy man.
My bike ride every day has increased by 6 times from what I was used to, so my legs are burning again, which I suppose is a good thing. I've been up at 10 AM every day, and working until about 4-5 AM to get...
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My bike ride every day has increased by 6 times from what I was used to, so my legs are burning again, which I suppose is a good thing. I've been up at 10 AM every day, and working until about 4-5 AM to get...
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fractal:
hey love
again, I could feel you guys around me even though there were miles in between.
again, I could feel you guys around me even though there were miles in between.
sydni:
I hope you're lovin' the playa right now.