amitabha

Time: 1:30 AM
Drink: Nothing
Music: Pinback - Bloods on Fire

I've secretly always wanted to sing in a band. If you know me, you'll see me always picking up the local papers and reading the classified ads. Well something I've never told anyone is I'm always looking at the musician wanted ads and kind of day dreaming about singing with a group.

I've never been in a fight in my whole life. One time when I was in 7th grade I stood up for myself (because i was really short and skinny, and was often picked on) and this kid tried to provoke me to fight him, but I just stood there and let him push me around. I guess fighting has just never really felt like it was worth it to me. Oh yea.. once I got jumped by 5 guys who mistook me for someone else, but i've probably said that before.

Once when I was a small child in Hawaii my whole family was on this small island called coconut island. We found a bird that had fallen out of a nest, so we decided to take it home and try to nurse it back to health. We fed it bread, and it died after a few days. That's my first memory of death. We found out later that it was a fruit bird.

I think the biggest reason that I don't want to have kids is a paranoid fear that I have that somehow I'll end up as bad of a father as my father was.. even though I know I'd never let that happen..


ok that is all. good night.