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amitabha

Mountain View, Hawaii

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Thursday Dec 04, 2003

Dec 3, 2003
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Time: 1: 47AM
Music: Modest Mouse - Life Like Weeds
Drink: Water

As of 8:08am this morning I will officially be 24 years of age. Another year has come and gone, and here I am in another time, place, and state of mind.. constantly changing and evolving into this new and as we all are, individually amazing person.

I have this bad habit of always getting really depressed on my birthday for some reason.. not really sure why.. it just always happens. I think alot of it has to do with me always subconsciously wanting someone to make a big deal out of my birthday just once and it never happens.. even though it's not that big of a deal..

So I never really look at new years as "the new year" or my time to reflect, as I've always saved my birthday for that purpose. I like to be alone, and reflect on the year that has gone by, and what has changed in my life.. what have I become in the last 365 days that I have been given? What can be learned, and what was gained?

Well let's see what has changed.. In the last year I have:

1: Traveled to New York City, San Francisco, Santa Barbara, Memphis, Disneyland, Bend OR, Gold Beach OR, Mt. Shasta, Black Rock City, Seattle, St. Louis, New Orleans, and various places in between.

2: Left everything I had, and moved across the country on a whim to find everything I needed.

3: Quit one job for another, and now again changing jobs, and managing to double my salary to officially put me in the highest paying position I've ever held.

4: Joined SuicideGirls, and suprisingly have managed to meet a myriad of people, and to my delight alot of really awesome people.

5: Taken up Yoga, Wu-Shu Kung Fu, Classical Piano, and am continuing to put myself through school. I've gained 20 pounds of muscle and I'm in the best shape I've ever been in both mentally and physically.

I actually wrote 10 in this list.. but I decided that was too long and people might get bored.. so I guess I'll save the rest for some conversation one day.

Anyways... basically my life has changed drastically over the last year.. relationships, careers, traveling, new perspectives.. the whole shabang.. I'm really pleased with the decisions that I've made and where this wonderful trip has taken me, but the Sagittarius in me is always striving for more, ambition being my eternal driving force, making me always yearn to better myself, and positively influence the people around me as much as is possible. Life is a reward for all the hard work we put into it every day, filled with so much beauty and potential to create an amazing atmosphere to enjoy, and I won't waste my time anymore.
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rockinricky:
oohh . . . purple
Dec 5, 2003
olivia:
happy birthday dicknose.
Dec 6, 2003

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