amitabha

When were talking about love lasting forever, I think theres a mistake we all make in assuming the person were with is the one were going to be with forever. I know Ive done it myself. Its like youre with someone, and if you have a long relationship, you automatically start to assume this person is "the one". Im not really quite sure why we do that to be honest. I guess it all depends on your perspective on life on a grand scale, dating back to my conversations about destiny and free will. Some people believe that destiny plays a large role in our lives, like certain aspects or variables of our lives are pre-scripted and just waiting for our eyes to scan the line of text so our bodies can fall into motion; An essential road map of life. While others believe that each opportunity is created by a choice we made, now we have exponential amounts of choices multiplying and dividing onto of each other creating this cataclysm of change in our lives.. complete chaos in reality but so beautifully displayed on our liquid crystal display panel that it could easily be interpreted as film on a reel.. one frame automatically and without choice leading to another. But the real bitch is how do we know which one to choose? Do you live a faith based life that everything will work out in the end, just be a good boy or girl.. brush your teeth every night and say your prayers and you have nothing to worry about.. or do you sit back and gasp in the complete disorder within the misleading order of our day to day lives and realize that nothing is certain? That said, I dont know if love is supposed to last forever. I guess my brain likes to visit both worlds, but doesnt want to live in either. Id like to believe in that one person out there perfect for me, and relax knowing that destiny is there to guide me, but opposite to those thoughts I also feel like everything depends on the choices we make. I have no idea what my destiny is, where I came from , or where Im going.. but Id like to believe I have the choice to make things happen my way. But humans are contradictory creatures, we want to have our cake and eat it too.. because just as I need to feel like Im in control of my own life, so I can feel responsible for the good decisions I make and the things I do with myself, and own up to the things I do wrong, Id like to believe there is that invisible elbow nudging me in the right direction to give me that small helping hand. I dont think love or the lack of love, or the separation of hearts and disintegration of relationships has anything to do with honesty on a very primal basic level. In the way of telling someone when youre deeply in love with them that you want to be with them forever.. I dont think people are lying when they do that.. I truly believe in most cases the average person really believes what theyre saying. But over time, the trials and tribulations of that relationship put those vows to the test. Without pain we would have nothing.. how will you ever truly know if someone loves you as much as they say they do if you have no way to prove it? Its that chaos that pours the foundation.. any real relationship is going to have issues.. I think its natures little way of making sure two people really are right for each other. And whether we like it or not, its got to be a mutual decision. Its all a cruel but pleasurable game of trial and error with our hearts, we both love and hate it, as we love and hate our partners. Without true pain, would there really be true happiness? And if so, how would you recognize it? We need one to relate to the other, and thats part of being the complex and horrible creatures that we are.