amilie

I got some messages from an ex of mine the other night that really shook me up I loved him for so many years and I guess part of me always will in some way but he broke my little heart over and over and it seams he still can but I don't want to ever feel like the pathetic little girl that he made me feel ever again and so now he sends me messages a year and a half on telling me he is sorry for the way he treated me and how he wishes that he had realised back then that I was the best thing that ever happened to him and he knows it is to late but he just wanted me to know blah blah blah cry cry cry. Just let me move on. get out of my fucking head there is no room for you any more.

Anyhow I have a new love now and I love this one with my head not just my heart but I can't help but hurt when i see that name come up on my mobil screen....... Mick........... I have a half writen story about our unconvensional love that I am now thinking about finishing in the hope that all the feelings I have for him will finish when the story does it is a bit of a shame that I started the story as a story that never ends but meh storys can lie can't they. I am thinking about writing it up in stages as it goes along on my blog to get me over my fear of people reading my writing and to help incourage me to keep working on it but it is very personal and it is a story so it is a mix of fiction, fact and exadgeration so I guess we will see.