he's gone
no hair up there
ormunroe:
I've cut out my loc extensions. It was just time. Now I have to deal with a shorter 'fro. I think I'll get it cut when I get back to the States.
I don't really know what's been going on myself. My husband has been away for most of the month and won't be back until the 24th but for the most part we just continue to ignore the elephant in the room.
I told my mom and him I'd give things time, and I will but only I know that time isn't going to change my feelings about women.
I love him and when he gets back I'll have to decide whether I can be with him for years loving him as a best friend and constant comfort. Or whether we both deserve a different kind of love that we can not give each other.
I made up my mind a long time ago but I always get suckered back in to giving in to others thoughts/expectations. Perhaps when I am in a better position to back my decision up with action (with a finished degree, job, and money in the bank) I will be able to act, and move on what I know. Until then, I guess I am biding my time and supporting him.
I don't really know what's been going on myself. My husband has been away for most of the month and won't be back until the 24th but for the most part we just continue to ignore the elephant in the room.
I told my mom and him I'd give things time, and I will but only I know that time isn't going to change my feelings about women.
I love him and when he gets back I'll have to decide whether I can be with him for years loving him as a best friend and constant comfort. Or whether we both deserve a different kind of love that we can not give each other.
I made up my mind a long time ago but I always get suckered back in to giving in to others thoughts/expectations. Perhaps when I am in a better position to back my decision up with action (with a finished degree, job, and money in the bank) I will be able to act, and move on what I know. Until then, I guess I am biding my time and supporting him.
it's freezing in some of my classes and humid enough to kill a small child outside. how do i hanlde this juxtapostion of climate i wear the evertrusty wife beaters. sure in class the nips took take out half the room but thinkign of the nips distracts from the sweat stains under my saggy bags once we're outside.
i've planned to be naked adn photographed...
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i've planned to be naked adn photographed...
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i will do nothing but sing the praises of punkerotic.com. nothing
ormunroe:
I think I'd be the abnormal jane a 3some would work for. 
he's leavign anytime but i'm already single mom. cried over it today. thought throughout the day how he could be goen by the tiem i got home. once did however i only wished he was. the advice i'm getting is all mixed up. stay a little longer, stay until you get pregnant again, stay until it gets worse, stay until it gets better, leave yesterday....
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darthlunchbox:
aCk! I hope that, ummm, I'm confused 
Hey, I was going to suggest, about the tattoo you want to get. If you go and get one, head to Doggpound and get one from Shane or Brandon, they are two of the best artist in there. Stay away from Bill Clayton's they are expensive for shotty work.
Hey, I was going to suggest, about the tattoo you want to get. If you go and get one, head to Doggpound and get one from Shane or Brandon, they are two of the best artist in there. Stay away from Bill Clayton's they are expensive for shotty work.
jholtsnider:
*hug*
I don't really know the story here. But things will get better.
I don't really know the story here. But things will get better.
swear i can feel the differnce when it creeps in. his hand was on my thigh adn i knew in a another day or so i'd cringe at such a gesture but for now it's tolerable. we go off into ditches
ormunroe:
you take the words right out of my mouth... 
good bordering on great weekend. spent time with an uncle in law, toted john bien along, started smoking again (AGAIN). it was really very nice. back to school today and i did very well on my remedial math exam and wrote a decent paragraph in eng. (going to a night NA meeting is just liek goign to score)
started working out this morning it's been...
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addlepatedwight:
I've updated my pics
I don't know if their helpful for tattoo ideas
but they might put a smile on your face
I don't know if their helpful for tattoo ideas
but they might put a smile on your face
i've gotten through a few days of not smaoking not on to not eattign shit. for about 10 months i was working out pretty hard and regualrly but once we moved and since i've been a lazy amy. i dont think i've gained any weight but i've definately lost muscle tone and that's 1000 worse. who gives a shit about a number it's what you...
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ravenspedigree:
hey hope you're doing well...haven't heard from you in awhile. let me know whenever you're free and we can do those photos. ttys
take care
take care
darthlunchbox:
Hey, hope you are doing good.
after 4 days i've got the rythm and routine of goign to school down pretty well. wake up at 6a shower eat have soem time with pants if he's up then off to class. so far nothing beyond my inabilty to understand simple computer instructions has been a problem.
spent this weekend in myrtle beach feeling kinda hazy and wrong without knowing why. maybe it...
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spent this weekend in myrtle beach feeling kinda hazy and wrong without knowing why. maybe it...
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ormunroe:
well...it seems I'll be climbing into your boat soon.
just today i recieved a reply from the letters i sent out to a girl i fucked over while in this institution a few years ago. pleasantly surprised to hear she feels the same way about the place hopefully manning a revolt will come up in conversation. oh yes i'm goign ot do my best to stay in touch with this one. she was so...
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darthlunchbox:
AHHH! We should become quite smoking partners! I'm so needing to quite again. I hope you're doing okay.
ormunroe:
I hope this finds you well...or as well as you can be considering your journal. I want to comment but I have no idea what to say about it.
Hopefully, I won't be turned away when I get back to Fay.
I want to comment but I have no idea what to say about it.
Hopefully, I won't be turned away when I get back to Fay.
Take care of yourself and your cute little boy!