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I've cut out my loc extensions. It was just time. Now I have to deal with a shorter 'fro. I think I'll get it cut when I get back to the States.

I don't really know what's been going on myself. My husband has been away for most of the month and won't be back until the 24th but for the most part we just continue to ignore the elephant in the room.

I told my mom and him I'd give things time, and I will but only I know that time isn't going to change my feelings about women.

I love him and when he gets back I'll have to decide whether I can be with him for years loving him as a best friend and constant comfort. Or whether we both deserve a different kind of love that we can not give each other.

I made up my mind a long time ago but I always get suckered back in to giving in to others thoughts/expectations. Perhaps when I am in a better position to back my decision up with action (with a finished degree, job, and money in the bank) I will be able to act, and move on what I know. Until then, I guess I am biding my time and supporting him.