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I almost e-mailed this girl but decided not to. It wasn't because I didn't know what to say, but rather I didn't want to be a burden. Is that strange? I know it's just an e-mail, but regardless I know that any kind of understanding or "connection" I would be hoping for is very unlikely. So unlikely that it would just be better to not send the message. I don't think she would be missing out on anything. I doubt I would come across any different than any other would-bes. That's just the way it is. I have no delusions about it. It didn't matter how much I meant what I said. I could swear by every compliment but I know I would just be dismissed as "oh it's just another one of these..."

Heh, make new friends. Thanks, that's helpful.

Besides I don't know enough about her. I could read profile after profile but I know that is not all there is to her. I learned so much from her in person that I wouldn't have been able to gather from whatever profile on whatever site.

She is so pretty.