amelie

Man, this has been one crazy fucking weekend. My dad came to town, and we both got fucking shitfaced. I managed to call and bitch out six of my friends between the hours of 2 and 6 am. whoops. Thankfully most of them have seen me when I'm like that and know not to take it seriously.

I've been feeling solitary lately, or maybe it's not that I'm feeling solitary, it's that I don't really care whether or not I'm hanging out with anyone. I've been more at peace the last two or three weeks than I have been all of my life. I don't know, I think that it's really important to have empathy for people. I've noticed that every time I'm pissed at someone, I've usually been in that situation in their shoes. It's important to try to understand where people are coming from, and to not judge too quickly. I'm not saying that you have to love everyone by any means, I'm too much of a bitch for that. It's funny, I always that being at peace meant that you were happy, but it's not really that at all. It's more of being able to step outside of yourself for a minute and take a deep breath.
I would love to be able to go to Nepal and live in a monastery, at least for a little while. I've never spent a lot of time looking into myself, maybe because it can be scary to know yourself. No one wants to point out their own faults. Okay, enough for right now