ameba

Headache and nausea.

(quite fittingly, 'Rammstein - Bestrafe Mich' playing on the stereo)

I can't understand what's the matter with me. The schoolday went without any problem, but afterwards my shoulders begun to cramp and I got something of a migraine. I feel weak and shaky, almost like having a hangover. At the moment I'm trying to eat some very fatty and salty food, hoping getting some salt in my system would make me feel better. What I really would need, is a massage. Regularly, two or three times a week at least. And excercise. Lots of it. I'll probably start going to the gym, because it's quite cheap here. It isn't much of a gym, but it costs next to nothing so it doesn't matter.

There is a fetish party in Helsinki on Saturday that I'm going to.. only problem is that all my other-than-ordinary clothes are packed away in plastic bags with the rest of my belongings and transported to my parents' attic to wait for a bigger apartment somewhere in the future. So, I have nothing suitable to wear... and somehow I just can't bring myself to wearing nothing at the party. It's tacky. And.. I would feel a bit ... naked. Maybe I'll manage to scrounge up something to the right taste.

The slow studying pace at the gunsmith school is frustrating and really getting on my nerves. I would really like to study and do things, but it seems every time we have half an hour's worth of information, we have to take a break for at least fifteen minutes. I think the problem comes from me having been in universities and working for a living for several years and having got used to a quicker pace. Anyway, I'm fed up with waiting around for something to happen. I can only hope that we have more to do when the courses change in a couple of weeks. I know we'll have a course in engraving in November, which I'm really looking forward to.