ambition

Thank you for all the kind words. I am feeling much better. Back to my old self mostly. I have to go every 8 weeks for follow ups with my neuro team. They are going to monitor my aneurysm and I am on medicine for the blood clot. Hopefully my aneurysm (I think I may name it) just sits there and doesn't grow or expand or start impeding on my life and I can live my life out normally. If not then I may have to have brain surgery but I really don't want to think about that right now.


My oldest son started first grade this year. He is so awesome. I love seeing him read. His writing still resembles his fathers: chicken scratch. Its legible but hardly. He is so excited every morning. Its so hard to believe that he is my same little 4lb. premie. The time really does fly by. Sometimes I find myself missing our quieter times together. Just him and I (me?) laying in bed together him just nursing away. I remember gazing at him and just being in such awe. We had such an awesome bond. I he was my buddy. We lived in Germany at the time and my husband was away a lot. I would throw him in the baby hawk and we would go exploring. I remember longing for adult conversation at the time but when I look back I am glad that I didn't have interference from anyone during my extended babymoon. I didn't have family members imparting their beliefs on me or others attempting to coach me. Enough nostalgia for now eh?